I see passion in the way you ignore me,
your grave attempts to evade my gaze
But your eyes meet mine
and they can't look away

The days continue to pass by
And time loses reason to fly
It grows weary as it comes to realize
There is nothing to fly to,
No happy ending to pursue
For what would happen after?
For time, it will always be fly
                                                     and never 'flew'.

I want to dance
with the demons you repress
I long to feel
your delicate hands caress
the beast inside my soul
Unlike your god
My love is unconditional
I love the hideous
as much as the beautiful

Oh how I enjoy
Simply being in your presence
Embracing the quiet and
Letting imagination fill the void
I feel no need to speak
When you are beside me
So I let my lips seal
And my soul
open

Walk with me
And we’ll tell our stories
With breath alone

Would you rather experience true love and die young,
or would you rather live a good life and die old, never having loved?
I think, I would prefer the first
Because I cannot wait to be in love, and I cannot wait to die.
Yes! I cannot wait!
I cannot wait anymore!
With the threat of death close,
Life would mean so much more
If I had someone
to live for

I used to fall asleep early
because I knew
I had reason to
wake up
tomorrow.
But now I have
nowhere to go,
no one to see,
nothing to do.
No reason to
go to sleep
or
wake up
tomorrow.

Tainted by delusion
A meaningless existence
Enshrouded in confusion
and polluted innocence
My mind continues to elude me
As my thoughts sink deeper into
obscurity

The forest sings softly, songs of harmony
Trees weave branches, intertwined

Worry floats up as clouds, stress fades to dust
Arms lock and hearts weld, intertwined

Colors dissolve, blend, and climb
Vision flows in waves, intertwined

People laugh, dance, and cry
Souls combine, intertwined

We are nothing,
Everything intertwined

oh, how quickly the resin is
devoured by flame
he promised her he'd be there
to save her from pain,
to give her the world,
let her reach for the stars
but as soon as he touched her,
she was swallowed by fire

as she sizzles and melts
blood pours from her side
she accepts her fate
and watches herself die
"in a few moments,
no part of me will remain
everything comes to an end
and so must I
what's the point of fighting?
just let me go
just let me die"

Deeper
Deeper
Deeper
It’s never enough
To satisfy
The feeling within
Not in the core
But in the soul
Unreachable
Untouchable
Even by the softest hands

I want to cradle your soul
in my humble hands
and feel the weight of your heart
crushing mine
I want all you can give
and I will not settle for less

The desire for attention
is never fulfilled.
the more you get,
the more you need
to fill up
the gap it leaves

When will the day break and the sun shine
into my heart, and I'll realize
I deserve to love
you, and miss you, and touch you, and kiss you
in a world where you felt what I felt
perhaps such a world will never exist
perhaps I simply don't deserve it
how could I even allow myself to be vulnerable
in a way that is beautiful and not repulsive
No.
I can't even look at you
because I know you will eventually see
all the flaws that I do
the scars on my heart
the sadness in my eyes
the wretchedness of my face
you cannot think I'm beautiful
there just isn't a conceivable way
I could be perceived
in the same context
as beauty

I like when your eyes gaze into mine
And I watch you deconstruct my soul
To be pieced together in your mind

I like looking at your hands as they fidget
And imagine what they'd look like
Taking me apart, piece by piece

I like hearing you say my name
My being is given meaning
When it's conjured from your lips

Perhaps it was a fluke
And I never felt this way
after all
my emotions were fake
it must be true
for my sanity's sake

That's what I'll remind myself
every single time
I think of you

Two innocent strangers
Trapped in a passion dance,
Entranced.

The summer Irish breeze
feels just like you did
during those cold winter weeks
when my extra pounds weighed heavy,
when the snow smothered trees

Walking faster, then you ran
left me with nothing
but a car bomb and a pen
now when I look in the lake
I see your face
and it dissolves into sand

do you still look for me?
up in the pines
if the wind whispered, “it’s she you need”
just wander north, follow the sky
to the Irish countryside
and feel me in the breeze

A never-ending race
An ever-fleeting chase
After fabricated humans
And transcendental emotions

Your happiness seems
to exist only in dreams

I touched the fragile snow,
watched it slowly melt,
and what I did not know
soon after, I felt
my fingers were no longer cold
but ignited in feverish flame
yet they refused to let go
and continue to hold
the scorching snow
just the same

you say that you love me
but you don't have the heart
you don't have the wit,
you don't think in art
not like I do.

I changed my mind
I can love you
and I want to

Look into my eyes.
Can you see it?
My loneliness
weeps
even when I cannot

jasmine is known
to be sweet and delicate
her life a never ending poem
that, as she reads,
she slowly forgets.

desperately chasing her tail
to discover where she belongs
only to find herself circling, heading nowhere
she forgets that love has been in her
all along.

see, jasmine's a traveler at heart
yet always confused on where to go
trying to find herself a perfect world
when her world can only be created
through words.

When she walks, she floats
Drifting past
Faces masked
While she’s enveloped
In a world
                   they’ll never see

The dust has come to settle,
At last, my brambles sprout
Vibrant petals
Full of hope and tranquil joy,
To drown out lonesome grief
A little toy
Was all you planned I would be
But there is so much left
For you to see
Soon you’ll know  
What I mean

I’ve finally begun to feel
The eyes following me
Everywhere
And yet,
No one is there

Laying in your arms,
You give me one last kiss

Put the barrel in my mouth
And pull the trigger

emotions lurk
within a shallow grave
for a traveler to find
waiting for the moment
to release and remind
that something alive
has been hiding inside

You're stupid to think
I would put all my eggs in a basket
with a hole in it.

Still searching for something to fill the void
The early silence trade for endless pain
And when my mind is screaming, filled with noise
If sanity is dead, am I insane?

Oh how I want to give my soul to thee
So I don’t have to hurt it anymore
The only thing I have to fear is me,
You tell me that I’m broken, are you sure?

With all the many lies to me you’ve fed
I see the truth that’s lingering afar
Hung on too long, to let you go I dread
I’ll leave this suffering, still plagued by scars

Embrace the pain. With it comes wisdom too.
Wake up, my dear. From death springs life anew.

I fear you’ll leave me behind
So I’ll keep you alive
In my mind,
you will never die

I still remember
  Bleeding out
     in your arms
         with a bullet in my head
You always knew I’d be happier
                    dead.

a touch so soft
even a petal
can feel its love

I could be a happy song,
a breeze through your hair
a breath of fresh air
but I can't right your wrongs

I can teach you how to sing,
to live a life wild and free
I'll reveal to you the beauty
that waits in corners,
hiding

because it's the little things
the sweet, sweet nothings
that mean everything

when you learn to see,
come and walk with me

I miss the feeling
Of forgetting my name
Of losing my breath
Of losing myself
Whenever you were around
But the truth is
I didn’t know you at all
I never fell for you
I only loved the way
You made me feel
And now I will never feel that way
again.

opening their petals
raising stamens to the sky
allowing leaves to dance
and pollen to fly
carried by wind,
floating past trees
to one day be cradled
by a neighboring blossom
or the cold soil beneath

Why are you never here to help me
You cause me all this hurt
You’re the one I cry about
And when you take away my tears
I think you’re my guardian angel
You know how many times I’ve called you that?

You’ve proven so many times that you don’t care
And then always tell me you do
So I don’t know what to believe

But if I let you go
Who will I cry about?
And who will make me feel better?

The only hole in my heart you fill is the one you made

we're wading through water
climbing up trees
weaving through branches
and falling like leaves

you asked me if I've ever loved
oh, if you only knew
I feel it all over again
each time I look at you

there's no reason to wonder
"is anything meant to be?"
when we're way too high,
just hold me tight
and we'll fall just like leaves

I try
To forget
Someone I never met.
But it hurts to let
g  o.

she walks and talks like no one is watching
and you can always find her wandering,
singing and dancing with the flowers
swinging and swaying with the trees
it isn't until their eyes fall on her
that she realizes she's been perceived
she wonders if she ever wanted to be known
but she also knows,
she doesn't want to be alone

Hunger sinks teeth into my side,
and enshrouds my ignorant mind.
I can no longer bear the torture
of being lonely and confined.

The treacherous prospect of waiting
threatens to rip me apart,
As hunger's tendrils grip tighter
around my swollen, beating heart.

I wish there was another way
to quench my insatiable need,
If I can’t indulge, I must implode
So I fall to my knees and plead

“Slash your knife along my torso,
Twist, pull, and disembowel me”

The only time I care what people think
Is when you’re around
Because meandering eyes
glance, then look away
But yours always seem to stay
Lingering, pondering
But I can’t for the life of me
Figure out what you’re
Thinking

I’ve lost too much time
Wasting away in my cage
Of cyclic thoughts, repeating
Over and over and over
The same boring tunes
Of pity and self virtue  
Each second spinning sorrowful songs
As days become shorter and bleak
My memories grow empty and weak
In the quiet of my home, I live in delusion
My lost time is but an illusion

there is no reason
to be so afraid
hold my hand
and we'll be ok

I am just as scared
as you are.

I envy people who can fall in love quickly
Swept off their feet and into the clouds
Floating gracefully as they dream about
A love that will or won’t be

I see your eyes glow when you're around me
how your mind begins to spin out of control
But there's something missing inside my soul
a part of me taken long ago
I only wish you could fix it
and fix me too
But, no matter how hard I try,
I can’t love you

Will I ever find my heart again?
It seems I’ll never know
All I’m certain of is
I want you to be happy,
whether it’s with
or without me

I see you as a shadow now
An image of what you once were to me
You were only a flower that bloomed in spring
But the cold is coming
The sun is setting
Your petals are falling
And my love is dying
Oh I knew this was how it was going to end
But now that it’s ending,
I wish just once I could have said
I love you...

Seared my flesh with burns
All I wanted was closure
Too bad I'm in hell