I should've known
that when I fell in love in August
nothing good was to come.
August was never good to me
always left me uneasy
it brought cold nights & heavy sticky days
It was built from sad songs inspired by breaking summer romances

You finally came
strange enough, you stayed
but it still wasn't right

the humidity wore me down,
June brought you here & July prolonged your stay
now here we are at the tail end of it all,
the air is dense & my thoughts can't even circulate through it
days are masked by heavy gray clouds
I feel confined to my thoughts
confined to you
confined to face the fact that you'll be gone soon
I can feel the breeze moving in & I'm waiting for it to carry you away
things around here will change long before the leaves do

my life is filled with empty books
hundreds of pages blank
not one stained black
and I sit here for days
reading too far into things left unsaid

I wore your words
all over my body
day after day
they had become a part of me
they made me feel immortal

you make my heart beat the way i always hate

The night you picked me up
I was high
but had never been so low.
surrounded by men leading lives with misguided purpose
my hair in a mess of a bun
smoke spiraling around me
you pushed open the door letting yellow light flood in
I looked up at you, you bit your bottom lip shaking your head at me
without being told I followed you through the doorway
if i hadn't known you better i would've thought you hated ****
but that wasn't you, we sat in the car as The Strokes blared aloud
you laughed at stupid things
I smiled at your ambiance
making note that you alone were a euphoria