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undefined Mar 2016
'Round back alleys, and down black side streets
sits [laying] newspaper mattresses, and makeshift houses with no heat.

Just a step, or two, from Big City Lights, (a rolling neon technicolor wasteland),
lives the bottom tip of the bottle, and a short supply of all, but upturned hands.

Two streets over, over-the-top sparkle of high heels, and scantly draped dresses.
Down here, dweller's fever's rush down from old minded babe's spiralings of deep depression.  

The language most commonly spoken is lies, but it's not much different up hill.
What's not translatable from "bag," "spliff," or "pill," can be easily related with "shot," "bottle," or "bill."

I find myself fluent, a traveled veteran of countrysides,
adjusting to the headache of the city's heart, but unwilling to take the full ride.
Not Finished Yet . . . Just wanted to put this on here so I don't lose it , I have to add to this, but right now I just have other things to get finish also.
undefined Jun 2014
watching the moon high in Colorado sky
I started writing this out in the dark of the night

waiting for dawn to bring on a "Home"
that the tree-top blue reminds me of .

A silent song plays in my head ,
thoughts and memories drift like fog on the wind .

painting a picture with words to express
untamed, unnamed feelings that boil in the breast .

It sings sometimes . . .
from the corners of her eyes ,
the warm glow of the west .
Ready, willing and always at best
to fall from midnight's mountain moonbeams ,
far more frightening a thought than would seem ,
and dance upon tables of unrest
[of] this weary broken traveler's still beating chest .

?
undefined Apr 2016
Making my way down the road
in a story yet to unfold
Dogs started barking, so I sat down
and kicked off my shoes

Stranger say, "Boy ya carry quite  load"
is the journey worth it's weight in gold?
So I picked up my guitar
and started singing the blues
----------------------------------------------------

I been on this road so long,
can't remember quite where it began.
I held on this guitar so hard,
now it's my only friend.

Well, I been ramblin' up and down,
trying to find an end.
I aint been Home
sense I can't remember when.
-------------------------------------------------
Been all over this country, coast to coast,
more times than I can count.
Playin' guitar, drinkin' and a fussing,
trying to find my way out.

I started out at the bottom, not a penny to my name,
and let the world do their best.
I came here with nothing,
and I still got most of it left.
Am/Dm-7/Am/E-7
Am/Dm-7/Am-E-Am

[ch]
Am/Dm-7/Am/E-7
Am/Dm-7/F-G-Am
undefined Jul 2020
Down this road, the only home I've ever known, the streets are stripped of Music bare as bone.
Not too long ago, I thought I'd forever roam, but now the streets are stripped of music, and I'm feeling more alone.
Work up a little wage, "scratch" to itch the call, but the streets are stripped of music , I got no home at all.
Got a ticket to ride the dog, anywhere else but here, but everywhere I go, ain't nothing for me there.
'Cause the streets are stripped of music, everywhere I go, never felt more empty... In all my times of writing songs
Just waiting for the bus in Lubbock
undefined Feb 2022
Stand in the morning Sun
Shake off the Cold
Change out of Thermals
Memorize restroom Code
Stretch stiff Muscles
Charge up Phone
Tune up Guitar
Take coffee"To-Go"
Walk down Royal
Find a Spot
...Play.
No use in Wishing
Don't ever waste a beautiful Day.
little daily reminders for me here.
undefined Jan 30
Time will **** me,
but I ain't killing time
I've worked hard for every penny
that I ever got
I spend all my money and
go broke every time
cause time will **** me,
but I ain't killing time

I spend all my money
on the things that I like
travel the world
barely getting by
but the hard times balance
when I look in the eyes
of friends and lovers
that fill my life
one day we'll all get what's coming
I just stay ready for mine
cause time will **** me but,
I ain't killing time

Time will **** me
I've worked all my life
my muscles are sore
one day I'll lay down and die
but I'll die happy
knowing I got mine
cause time will **** me
but I ain't ever killing time
undefined Apr 2019
I was whole once. I knew who I was.
I was full of ideas and dreams, and surrounded by love.
I had a home, where we all stayed.
We built blanket forts, ran and played.

But that was all taken away, by someone
not quite a friend but in whom I loved anyway.
I was blindsided by  ruthless cunning,
and mercilessly betrayed.

My comforts were meaningless, heart and spirit broken,
my soul was lost. I was hurt and afraid.
I sank deep deep deep into a shallow grave,
tore my clothes in mourning. No god could save.

I had been beaten worse than I had ever imagined
Defeat hung 'round my head and drowned me in sadness.

All hope was finally crushed on a day I'll never forget
The day I devised a plan to finish what life I had left

I gathered the medication, tools for my doing in,
said goodbye to strangers that I called family and friends
moved into an old storage shed, and set out to put an end
to the misery, that had consumed all but my last breath

I took my charge without hesitation and in darkness I was swept
only to have an angel wake me from my bed
At dawns first light I arose from a nasty pool of red,
pills laid scattered, spewed about the whole mess

… And I was a new sort of alone, one I'd never felt

...In a way, I had    kind of left.

And for the first time in a while, I had nowhere to hide
I began to understand a little of what was going on inside

I soon after found a road
and began my life to roam

never to look back at how I was before
only the trail ahead, onward, f'ward.

I've lost myself so many times
To houses in cities, with girlfriends and wives

But I always seem again to find,
with hunger when I'm tired, in the rain when it's cold outside,

Myself again there, on the trail,
somewhere I can't hide
just tired..
od
undefined Dec 2012
od
ice-cream scoop carved out my soul,
i'm left here wide awake feeling hollow and cold
undefined Feb 2013
found out my friend's husband had a stroke,
he's in a wheelchair now
corporate America has bought
all the places where i use to hang out


"fry street" is now townie's
the whole vibe's kind of moved to the square
and those run down old apartments
have a waiting list up to six years



a place where ya use to drink all night,
play chess, or stop to cool your head
now sales sandwiches
made all... on Pita Bread

there's a place beside where the "hack-circle" is no more
that says "crusty.." something by the door

making it clear that my days of 'rad' are dead
(screwit)
i think i'll get a bite down at "banter" instead
wrote this while exploring my town again the other day
ahhh, still like taking walks down memory lane ...

this isn't very good i think hahahh, but my roommate likes it, so i'll leave it here :)
undefined Feb 2014
Again i feel the necessity to
see what I've written ,
when pound for pound , my energies [are] better left spent on spitting .

'Cause in my heart I'm split into a
million different sections ,
and I've ran through a few too, (down halls and learning lessons) .

Life can teach me a lot of things if I
open up and let it ,
some "good," some "bad" but, a lesson . . . . Is still a lesson .
"**** i'm ******" - Simon
undefined Feb 2022
One more song to play
"One **** over the line"
One more sunny day
Just one more passer-by

One more scribbled page
Sing it out in time
One more sunny day
One more line to rhyme

One more drop of change
To change my thirsty mind
One more sunny day
Let me know I'm still alive

Children run and play
God how I've missed mine
On this sunny day, I pray
That I'll forgive with time .
The rain is finally gone, and I get to spend the day busking in NOLA :)
undefined Mar 2018
While trying to write a poem, called "Love is a road"
Here's a rap instead, that I just wrote

Through the quiet and the thicket
where the trees grow the thickest,
Across from brewery-bars
diving deep in the midst of

Trafficking cars searching for a train
so I can rest in peace
Defying my language as I
redefine my speech

The crowd before the storm
calm before the scream
I'm high once again
putting some ground beneath my feet

Back to what I'm after
the howl and the screeeech!
Across the square
down from Austin street

I look at audio
like it's Gold
Be sure and take a picture
see you after the show

Hear that train whale
and hold you both close
You and me forever in stitches
laughing as it blows

"Love is a Road"
that's what I'm told
Take the highway fast
or less traveled slow and low

Before I have a brain aneurysm
and my body strokes
The microphone seizes up
and I start to choke

I look around and I see so many
people without a home (no where to go)
Sleeping just down the street from folks
with money to blow

But hey, I should stop talking
cause I don't know
What it's like to have ****..
i've always been broke
i don't know what this is right now, but I like some of the visuals
... So I'll hang on to it till I can make something
undefined Jan 2019
Addicted to it man, just can't let it go
Stunned thunder clap, another good show
The south-side monster on 16th street
Listen to The Words, or just let him be

Words that spilled out
for Jesus & his drink
A Lotus to bloom out of the rough
Double down for one more hit of that stuff

[CH]
Gimme a thunderous clap, a slow rolling roar
And I'll always come back for just one more

Austin from Tallahassee
To Jackson Square in New Orleans
The Appalachian trails, to Venice Beach
In Florida it'll leave ya sleeping on the street

You can find it anywhere
There's smoke and drink
There's a gambling man (&a gambling chance)
Under every marquee

[CH]
Gimme a thunderous clap, that slow rolling roar
I'll always come back for just one more

[CH]
.....One more score.

Addicted to it, can't let it be
Every sucker on a stage, (including me)
It's not fame, money or glory we seek
But if you get a taste, it's so hard to leave

Oh, that thunderous clap, that slow steady roar
Always coming back for just one more.
I have a poet friend "Lotus" who was telling me a story about performing when he was younger, (they called him The Words, in Oklahoma) and he was telling me about this experience with the hush, and them tho roar of surprise and thunderous applause that followed a set he had... He said, "I'm addicted to it man, I just can't let it alone, I wanna experience that every time I get on stage now." I told him that's pretty much what I think we're all here for as artists.  (But I said it, by writing him this song :)
undefined May 29
Waves crash white cresting foam that slaps the shore, cold at first as I wander out to explore,  fins on feet and snorkel out toward the break, where I find a nice flat rock to sit in the sun and bake.

Children play with their mother on the beach,  ocean life swims under and all around me,
   I gaze out over an open water
                                           daydream.
New hobbies
undefined Jan 26
i miss my camera that was stolen
my guitar that i sold
the paper running out of my last note

ink is slowly drying
i feel i'm slowly dying,
i'm panicked, and i never really know

Why

I cry

Inside

i got arrested last night
for the first time in a while
the girl that makes me sad
used to make me smile

And she still could
If she would
Try



smoking cigarettes like they're going
the way they already went
i've got too many thoughts
on my mind to vent

feels like I'm falling
losing all control
breaking down and broken
feeling so alone


i've never been this scared
never wanted to be free so badly
that it tears a gaping hole through me

i feel lost and
i'm struggling to breathe
searching frantically for an answer
something to help me see

I've forgotten all the tools
and things that kept me sober & happy
all i'm wanting now
is for everything to be over & that
                                                    scares me

I feel so much older,  now
and I bruise so easily
my heart may never mend
like embers slowly dying

a fire's going out
and my hands are trembling
my mouth is dry
and it hurts that
nothing left excites me
.  Still in the works.
But I'll keep writing it out of me.
undefined Jun 1
Time is an enemy
when surrounded by water on an island.

A week can take a year ,
passing like hour glass sand.

A song is written in a moment
like it was Yesterday

All reasons to stay.           ...drift away ,

Paying penance to a paradise sentence
    dosent buy your way.
undefined Jan 2013
gather-grab up the positivity
bottle it, store it
life is beauty warm
you can't ignore it

last couple of days 've been a reel ego-boost
i write too much about downs
but i'll always speak the truth
And the truth about the way
that I've been feeling today
Is that there aint no place to go but up from here
Am I High?
I may need ta check and see
'cause as far as i can tell
Nothing right now could hold me

breathe it in
like fresh wind from the sea
deep breath . . exhale
[ it's positivity ]
undefined Dec 2012
the night is alive with flavor
:)
undefined Feb 2013
straying off a drum beaten path
magic wonder awakens gleefully
a night alive with music
rhythmic blood pumping sounds that carry me
unalone / unafraid / safe / moving winds spinning freely
-comfortable company-
undefined Jan 26
I miss her
like ink misses the page
when i can't seem to think
of the right words to say .

I love her like the heavens,
and to the moon I pray,
the only wish I ever have,
that every shooting star could stay .

If there is a god of love,
how could one create
this old heart of mine
just to feel it break

...
.. going to keep working on this I think. I like one or two lines in there.
undefined Jan 2013
looking up for your twinkling eyes
above cloud covers, it's nights like tonight
filled with feelings of indiffence
unsure of my place or if youre missed
silver / white gleam moves accross the sky
in view of steps where i sip on red wine
tommorrow is the begining of another week
i'll search out work, food and a place to sleep
but nights like tonight are lived moment to moment
unsure, but at peace with whatever gets thrown at...
(deep breath)

[Sounds of the "Lumineers" drift accross the yard
... and out into the darkness of the nite
with all thoughts of nothingness creep
and smoke from the last cigarette that sits perched 'tween lips
with glass, half full, dangling from fingertips]
undefined Mar 2013
There’s a quiet place in my mind
One that I keep trying to find
Where it’s never trouble
And I always know just what to write

Lying down with head in the grass
These nice, warm, sunny days never last
Watch the smoke rise like clouds
Catching a train, she’s on her way out

With guitar I’m left, hanging here
Still a boy, with poems of “no fear”
Too early to bed down
Simmer the swimming thoughts in my head

I’ll go now…
To that place that I said,
So that I don’t run around here screaming
All the words I left unsaid
undefined Dec 2012
random poem button
give me something to read with a pulse
dead words from dead people are nice
but too easy and i've read them all before
serve me up a pumping heart
full of feelings or remorse
words with a pulse
something new, something now, ridged or coarse
something fresh that i can sink into
with teeth and eyes that dine and ask for more
random poem button
please hear me write
if i get another poem written
before this last century
then believe you me
i'll just go back to my homepage browsing manually
and never again use
your oh so special feature
instead i'll stay content
to myself, just randomly people search
thhhhhhpppp...
undefined Mar 2013
All is quiet now at last
In the house of the dead
A trail of tears I follow behind
Remembering loved ones
And times before loss
Joyful remembrances
And sorrowful costs
Remember their strength and undying luster for life
And all the things you did together
And all the things done right
Take them home with you
And just leave the body
Take care and grasp hope
In possibilities endless
Believe in yourself to make them proud
With more moments worth remembering
no proper title actually again
[can't say that working at a funeral home isn't starting to affect my writing now hehehheh
undefined Aug 2018
Made a right hand turn in Witchita
met a guy named 'wrong turn' and headed back to the bar
woke up in Austin, slept in a van
sang "happy birthday to me" and got drunk again

******* second hand air through the countryside
busking here and there, (I'm) just along for the ride
traded time for a place that smelled like ****
loaded up the band, here we go again

Lost my mind,  a little I know,
pieces of me scattered up and down the road
some left in Georgia's July, others off the coast on an acid hike

........

Raged a bit too hard last night,
tried to destroy anything of meaning in life
Everything will **** you, I suppose,
sooner or later it's how we all go .
undefined Apr 23
I have one week to make it back to Paris and meet Rayne at the airport.

Goodbye magnolia trees and Margaret the cat, I'm out the door early and into town for coffee and to figure out what direction to move in next. "Toodalure San Fargeau" I hope sometime to pass back through. After freshly ground coffee, an orange juice,  some homemade yogurt,  cigarette,  and a piece of alvacado toast, I head out of town in what I believe is soo (south). Stopping only to snap pictures of a castle and a church, seen yesterday.

The next town down, I pas a cemetery and a veterans memorial,  but no restaurants, or even a post office.  There are a lot of these little residential villages from what I've seen all over France. On my way through the village after that, I stop to check my map, and see that even if no one picks me up on the road, I should be able to make it to a place with water and perhaps food within the next 2 hours, there's a large community another couple villages away.

A younger guy pulls over to a stop in front of me and says, "You look as if you could use a ride," I climb in what looks like a work van that has been outfitted to sleep or live in for short periods of time on the road. William is a carpenter by trade who has recently broken up with a girlfriend, and is getting pretty sick of his boss. He's headed west to spend a week of vacation time with a girl there, and to decide if he ever wants to go back to his job again. He's also a pretty good guitarist and a new fan of bluegrass.  We stop at the next town and I spend my last few euros to get us coffee and hear him play. Afterwards, I decide to continue our conversation as far as he's going so, my new direction is now west. Closer to major transit anyway, and still in route to collect my friend in the city at the end of the week. (All trains go to paris)

Dropped off in the city of Rennes, (pronounced more like "wren"), it's a collage town similar to where I'm from only with a river running through it, a slightly better transit system,  and a few more boulangeries than Denton. Rennes is a city rich with midevil history, some of the first tournaments began with knights there. But 11th century walls renovated by 13th century lords, restored again by architects, masons, and builders of the 15th century,  is fast becoming victim of 21st century "could give a **** less" newbloods. I decide to stay for the night so, I look for a place to play. The first person I meet is named Francis, he is headed to a cafe/bar for "english speaking night" there. I go with him, but he skips hanging out with the group inside and instead just chats with me for a bit. He has been to India where I am going and he's an English teacher so, we have good conversation,  and I learn a little bit of "le france" too.

As the night goes on, drunk kids who've just finished exams flood the streets, and though there are many great interactions, compliments on my singing, and everyone is having a good time, I only make pennies. And after phoning to check in with Mom, and checking to see how Rayne is doing, a drunk local woman shows me to a spot where I can crash for the night.

The next morning, after making only .70cent dealing with drunk students last night, and fussing with homebums this morning,  I decide to take off and see Brittany's other city, Saint Malo, on the coast. I make camp next to the motorway and slept in a bit late, but found a ride about half way there, deciding to stop en route to see a little town where every single building was sourced from the granite quarry there. I walked about a kilometer into th town when I found a pub and it began to rain. The frequent rain in Brittany makes the countryside lush and green, like much of the south I've seen so far, accept here, there are more hills and coastline landscape much more similar to Oregon or Washington,  in the states.

Tim has been a local here for 18 years, moving here from England after meeting his wife, she's the lady behind the bar who laughed at my sign, (on my pack it says, "apprends-moi le français, s'il te plait"). He says that when he met his wife, he was forty (something) and she was 18. They're both good company,  and after a couple songs and a bier, I am invited to supper with them. (Duck).  

Tim gives me a lift the rest of the way to Saint Malo. Through the gates of "cite' corsair" to the wall facing the Atlantic... Atop it, I am 5 thousand miles from anyone or anything I have ever really known, with 6 'roes to my name, the closest I will be to the US for the rest of this adventure, and I'm looking out over one of the most beautiful sights I've ever seen in my life.

Two cafes' later I met Arthur, he tends bar but it's his night off, he wants to write, play music, and go watch the sun go to sleep from the beach. "Ye' are mot!" That's how you "cheers" in San Malo. I have a few drinks, Arthur's treat, and we're watching "coucher de Soleir."

The next morning it's time for me to leave "pirate city," and continue finding my way to meet up with Rayne. Cafe, cquesant, found a couple euroes somewhere, mail a postcard off, and I'm walking country roads again in no time.

I leave the ocean coast a walk for several days through yellow fields that feel to me like I'm strolling through an oil painting, forests where I camp by streams of running water and wake up to snow on the ground, passing 600 year old places lost in time, walls and stone structures reclaimed by nature and covered with moss and ivy, everything dating hundreds of years older than anything that still stands in my country. As I reach a road at the edge of the next town, a woman pulls over and asks if there is anything she can do for me. I am tired from sleeping on the ground and days of walking, I'm out of food, water, money, and haven't passed anywhere to play music since leaving Saint Malo. I tell her that I would take a lift into town for water, if she is offering.  

She takes me to a cafe for coffee, trys to phone a place to see if I can play music there, buys me a sandwich, some bread for later, pastries at the boulangerie, then drives me to the otherside of town and leaves me with 20 euros in my pocket. Time spent with her was brief, so brief that I never got her name, but she spoke of how fortunate she has been in her life to live long enough to have things and be able to to help. Speaking momentarily on budist and stoek philosophies saying, "Now, is the gift we are given to do what we can with. The goal to being pressent now, is to Not Worry. And to use the 'now,' you ask, what can I do?.. If nothing, then No Worry. If something,  then you do it so, No Worry."

I walked for a little ways and fot a short ride that took the confusion away from my directional questioning for the remainder or this trip. . . Walking along "Rue de Paris."

Many more miles to go still, and it's getting cold out again, but my needs have been met, I have a positive mental attitude,  and all I have to do now is walk .






Stop Auto... (preview)

I do wish that I knew a bit more of the language still, I am learning, but I still feel like somewhat of a disappointment when hitching a ride and found not to be as good conversational company as most hoped. Still, hitchhiking is pretty easy in France, and after factoring my pace walking thus far with the amount of time I have before Rayne lands in the city, I decide not to risk coming up short of meeting her there, and to just hitch the motorway for the last 300km or so. I stood at a roundabout for a few minutes with my thumb out and got a ride most of the way to where I needed to be, the toll booth entry for the motorway headed nord.

Honks and waves, and smiles (probably at my hat and guitar) accompany my short walk there. It only takes a few minutes and I get a ride to the outskirts of Le Mans where I have to change highways. I hopped out of a car, and straight into an argument with law enforcement about being on the wrong side of the toll booth. I go find cardboard and make up a sign that reads "Paris," and in route back to the proper road, a man yells at me and tells me that he will get off work at 7pm and can give me a ride to Paris then. So, I sit down at the McDonald's and read for the rest of the day.

Stephen turns out to be a pretty stand up guy too, and although he's not supposed to have anyone else in his "boss' car" that is just for travel to and from his work, he lives 20 minutes from Paris and I ride with him 2 hours all the way, and he drops me off downtown.
This is a very rough draft for a kind of "teaser" that I'm going to work up for the book I am writing . I will finish it after the summer is over , but here is a very small part of a story in it.

Please excuse terrors, it hasn't been read or checked by anyone yet (aside from you now 😉)
Oh and I wrote it out on my phone and grabbed wifi here for a sec just so someone can give it a read
Thanks
undefined Jun 2014
her hands were pristine, unblemished, clean
they tremble with passion on the keys (she's 18)
mine are scarred, an unnatural discolored burn scheme
i'm older and slower, still peck-typing
undefined Jan 2014
Alone with my breath rising through the air,
my shadow dark,
thick.

Street lamps buzz,
the ground
creeks and crackles.

[far from the Oklahoma and Arkansas wood...]

I shouldn't start here,
I should go back before
where someone different,
but similar enough to me, stood.  

A far long ago lost season of a life,
that is perhaps where
I should begin the
story I now write.

We'll begin by sitting at a table where a man,
defeated,
had given up
trying.

And decided
one night,
that from his Hellish Head
there would be a final untwining.

He came to the next morning
in a pool of blood and *****, and sunshine like angel wings.
There he was left an indeterminate impression of unburdening.
(like he'd simply downloaded everything.)

Of the substantial problems, issues  [troubles]
that had carried him up to the dark decision,
he had
miraculously been
somehow, in some way,
over-ridden.

.. A new time had dawned, and
as directionless as it was,
this anomalous sense of
nothingness
and desire had been born
from the mud.

A low hunger for life crept,
not exactly a "spiritual awakening,"
but connections prior and all hurt had gone,
[like a deep brain cleansing.]

With new empty eyes
like a child now seeing, everything
that was before, died
that morning.
... but the man, of course,
kept on breathing.

He went out on a search to find what heart, if any , he had left.

A semester in school showed sparking a writing interest, but
from everything else, still
[felt disconnected].

The season of winter was upon me and
the darkness of the nights
began their first lessons.

It was time to move on,
though to where (?)
was the question.

A trip to the ocean to let loose ,
place of final forgetting.
Then serve out a warrant in Texas
spend a short time in a cell reading.

Set free a new man,
a new season now rested.
so began a new life where previously
only demons lay infested.

Searching for a path,
something far from worthless,
returning to childhood hometown with
little vested sense of
definite purpose.

Floundering in personal relationships,
finding comfort in the bed of many,
never a real connection. ...'Till                                                    
    ­        
                                                   passing by a street one night,
listening to the sounds of life
and the evening's music,
my eyes
met a gaze that sparked my spirit's complete
attention.

A
dark gray
empty void burst
with color and life
at my ear's first listen

to this siren with midnight hair,
she lit a flame that did fan
lifting this shell of a man                                           
                  ­           out of perdition.

In her arms,
in her eyes,
tangled within
a body of sighs
[lies]

I found hope,
perhaps for the first time.

We set out for the summer,
and a new season of my life, with
care free adventure consuming our minds.

She gifted me music,
( the kind essential to life.)
As important for my well being, also
she gave me a write .  

...the right to love again
all risk taken and heartache aside,
she showed me the sort of feelings
that make struggle worth the fight.

Seasons abiding joyously on, 'till
the signs did change, and we headed back
to the only place that made sense to call a home.
And there, came at last, as expected,
the end of my love affair.
We saw to our separate ways,
"a' la fin," she did break my heart,
but I had learned a great and profound lesson.
.... I had dared to love so deeply, and without condition .....

With no regret I tell you now
that one of the most wonderful days
of my new life
will always be that early spring moment
when the sun in her soul
first shined through me.
... I will love her always,          
I know that.


So, where do I find myself now? Living,
connecting, growing,
learning, loving,
engendering a path all my own,
new every day and
brilliantly daunting
at every conversion.


This is
My story unfinished
Of life and changing
like Music
in song
so ..... unfinished ??
[ goodnight]
undefined Jan 2013
seeking shelter

The lights go out and the walls begin to rattle.
17 men sleep on the floor in one small dining room's shadow.
The sounds of sniffles and coughs spike, then die out neat.
The real crescendo comes two minutes later, when snoring begins to peak.

On hard linoleum floor, packed in elbow to elbow,
with all the sound of appliances in the kitchen
And now of course, this human instrumental...

Good food,
we all get to eat,
glass still half full
when you remember...
It's either stinky feet,
or a night on the street
sincere thanks to all the workers and contributors of The Salvation Army in Denton, Texas
undefined Jan 3
I wish,
that there was a way,
that I can make you feel,
on the good days,
as good as you do me.

When we put one another down
in black and white,
"good vs bad,"
we come out about the same
it seems...
Save for this one outstanding thing.

I've tried to reflect how good
you make me feel
back to you,
in any way I could find.

And I don't think
that you're not hearing me,
I just believe
that I don't have the same magic
as you perhaps.
I don't know how to make you feel
as good as you do me.

.... But I can rest tonight,
knowing that I have tried.

And being the person that I am,
still ever hopeful of things,
I know that I will continue.

My love will continue,
and therefore continue to try.

I can't decide for you,
(and it is a decision. That, I know)
what your feelings are to be for me.
I can't make the good times,
for you,
as good as they are for me.

... But I still don't know how
to stop trying.


[and that's what love is i think]
Just some thinking tonight, that's all... Probably too much thinking , really.
undefined Mar 2013
since you've been gone,
I measure every other girl to you..
It's not something I can help,
it's just something I seem to do.
undefined Jan 2013
she wears those little
boots so well
short print skirt
dances with the breeze
out the bottom of her
light brown jacket with the fur lining
brushing back her jet black
hair with her fingers so nimble
her skin so fair...
its not fair
that i am not the sun that bathes her,
or the gentle gusting wind that sways her
... or the sucker that she licks :)

well, perhaps i am maybe
... a sucker

[she spies a chair beside me and sits]
just takin in the sights on the first beautiful day here in a few
undefined Jun 2019
Around stone pillars, hear the cries
into the ground a casket lies

Sunsets behind two eyes
darkened skies, stars arise

Lonely hopes drift and Float
across the sea horizons glow

Where souls go, I don't know
we all travel far to find a home
undefined Oct 2018
Jon or Jonny's what they called him back home
but we were all just "Private" to the Engineer Corp
Down for whatever, through thin & thick
in the worst parts of it all, he had my 6

His smile always lightened up the mood
when I needed a friend to listen, he was there too
Pieces of metel from an IED attack
still left a bit of shrapnel there in his back

"Where there's smoke.." Ya know that saying?
Needless to say, that's how he got a new name
1st man up, last one to leave
always the cool one when ya needed him to be

My "Battle Buddy"

E company came back 14 men short
with 30 purple hearts on class A uniforms
I got depressed & tried to deal with it
Smoke never seemed to find that switch

He didn't show up to formation one morn.
When I saw him in his car it shocked me to the core
seein' him there in PT shorts
with one less bullet in a 44

He was my Battle Buddy

....
Jon, or Jonny, is what they called him back home
We were all just Private to the Engineer Corp
Down for whatever, through thin & thick
in the worst parts of it all, he had my 6 .
undefined Apr 2013
pouring all your heart out
                                            in the street
feelings better expressed
                                      strum and beat

he doesn't play for change    just sanity
and right now, oh-oh-oh-oh, boy it's weak

he's hittin' the road
goin' out hard
gonna take it and run dahdahdah

he's got the bracelet she made him
he's cool with that
packing to go soon anyways
just his ruck sack

No more texts sent
No more nights of lonely
No more checks to spend
on a "one and only"

I'd catch every tear for you
try and hide them away not to be found
I make every excuse that I can
but still find myself crying
What do you do when you can't change someone's heart,
...But yours still believes it can ?
undefined May 2021
He was a big gunslinger, real bell-ringer,
never backed down from a fight.
A game changer, friend of danger,  
living life one night at a time.

He'd go out and hit the bars every night,
shooting pool and drinking *****
He had jet-black hair, a devilish smile,
and fists full of bad tattoos.


On a southern trail she rode the rails
with a big ol' dog, and a big ol' knife.
She sang so sweet, busking on the street,
but do her wrong and it might cost your life.


He bought her a drink and said, "What do ya think,
could we make this last all night?"
She said "Yes," but had to confess,
"I'll be gone before morning's light."

He said "Come with me,"
they agreed, and out the door both of 'em went.
Now stories are told, but nobody really knows,
'cause aint either been seen since.

{CH}

Sometimes you don't know about the end of the road,
some things just can't be seen.
And sometimes when you go, and reach the end of the road,
it might just be the beginning...



... Sometimes I like to think that they just dropped off the grid,
maybe he gave up the drink, and now they're raising 'em a couple of kids.
... And she's happy singin' songs to the trees,
on a porch out somewhere where no one else can see.

{ch}

'Cause sometimes you don't know about the end of your road,
some things just can't be seen.
And sometimes when you go and reach the end of your road,
it might just be a new beginning.
undefined Nov 2015
Headed down the road, no particular place in mind
When I saw an opportunity, to sit down and write
All of the sudden, a feeling came over me
Started missin' you so bad , I could hardly breathe

Flowers were blooming, we both always liked The Spring
I play guitar now, and I try to sing
I hope you know, I'll never forget
All the love you showed me, Oh, how much you've meant

I guess everybody's, got their own way
Of working through loss, so they can feel 'okay'
I've had me a cry, now I'm laughin' through tears
'Cause as long as I live, I know you'll still be here

Well, I guess it's 'bout time, for me to leave this place
Hope you liked the song, "I'm goin' ta be on my way"
Too short of a time we had, before "the part"
Where you left everywhere else,
                                                         save the place In My Heart
undefined Jun 2015
We've made music 'til morning's light
passing through the night
You and I
with ocean and sky
Your constant loving breeze
my guitar with me
Together we made music
so sweet
Neither of us with anywhere else to be
with sandy bare feet
I strummed a melody
and you, you sang to me
undefined Feb 2013
A news reporter from Dallas interviewing about the new parking spots.
Talks of war and military combat training with men who know a lot.
The sun is shining along the sidewalk in front of the courthouse square.
A lazy day lending hints of spring soon coming is in the air.
The bell in the tower across the street chimes,
telling me i've one more hour before work and i go back inside.
undefined Jan 2013
on a mission of self-searching
(search for myself)
a home-coming long awaited
what better a place to be found

like myself, so much about here has changed
this is where i'll make my mark,
but right now i haven't a single penny to my name.

times have changed and it appears that Denton has kept up
sadly though, i believe that i have not.

for so so long i have waited for this day
it has called to me, (this seat, this town, this cafe).
but everything is so so different than before,
perhaps i truly shall find my way, (my place, my course).

my past has now discovered a reckoning,
and i can start again fresher than before
a new hope in me has risen
one that was never there before
[last line iffy i think]

..just writing here from Jupiter ...
undefined Feb 1
A memory remains
Breeding pains
Feeling cheap
Sliding down drains
               and abandoned in the street
It's scars my heart
And makes it weak
Now trying so hard  
  
To cautiously
                         proceed.
Just thoughts here..... That's all right now.
undefined Apr 2013
i turn into a flippin' mess when you're around
i got all these feeling i don't know how to let out

i'm just feelin' a little mixed up right now
about us together getting out on the road

i said that you could come travel with me this summer
and i WILL hold true to my words

but i wish there were something i knew of
that could make everything stirring inside

just, subside.
at this point i should ask,
"anybody wanna smoke a bowl" LOL
undefined Jan 2013
random stranger
met him on the street
we shared a table
and conversation turned deep

never met a stranger
this day was quite unique
so convinced of fables
as we talked awhile of "peace"

i wonder if ever there was a stranger
person i could greet
who held so true to labels
like childhood tales and dreams
undefined Oct 2014
i was busting     songs out
as fast as i could flow
she was turning "tricks"
on the corner of the road

barely making rent with
the habits that we chose

but we don't fuss & we don't fight
[....and thats good}    

i was  broke and selling c.d's
from the back of my van
she was out *******
  with every guy in town

we were barely speaking
accept to explode

but we don't fuss & we don't fight
[ever since i said "i'm gone"} ("hit the road")
get back to this later maybe just to remind me of the ***** rhythm
undefined Nov 2014
learned to play guitar
and even learned a new song
played music for money
spent time with my family
busted a string playing guitar
lost a friend
fell in love
climbed a mountain
sat on a waterfall
saw a palm tree
walked along the beach in fog
breathed salty air
swam in the ocean
discovered a fruit
saw a gay pride parade
camped in the Redwoods
fireworks exploded right above my head
made love on a cold starry night
played in sand
hiked down highway 101
slept on a boat in the bay
skinny dipped in a lake
and had *** on a train
undefined Feb 2022
A girl I dated once called me an "emotionless robot." Yesterday I woke up screaming, last night I fell asleep while crying... Guess she was wrong.

Fingers freezing.
Paint on a smile for passer-bys.
Keep my feet moving down the street
to PJ's for coffee,
for my daily "Good Morning."

Someone told me a song I played was "sad,"
I told them it was the happiest one I had.

The little market store on St. Louis is letting me stock the cooler again this afternoon.
So, I'll be able to buy another drink tonight.

The mornings are stiff,
and the late night shivers with cold.
1987 is the code to find the restroom.
Coffee warms my disposition.

Words stay trapped in my pen,
I start writing sometimes,
and don't know how to end.

... (i'm sorry)
Journal entry today.
undefined Nov 2015
this is a Tennessee lullaby
from the front porch, to the wide open sky
lining up bottles, and getting ****** tonight

writing my "Tennessee Lullaby"
undefined Apr 2013
where the spine holds deep
the preasure undertook
where music bends
the sound from the book
to artists of music and spoken word
undefined Sep 2015
A relationship,
that's foundation must always be
unwavering truth and honesty ,
only on such a foundation
can there be cornerstones of trust and faith .
If a foundation is solid , it's corners will not break
And cracks from shifts , can be repaired or replaced . . .

Be it hurtful , scary , or uncertain of change ,
we must always center on these things
(Truth , Honesty , Trust and Faith)

This I say ,
because I realize that things
like people , interests and feelings, change ,
but if our relationship is set on a solid foundation
and we remain honest about the decisions we make . . .
There will stand a Love
stronger than any heartache  .
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