I used to be so open
But lately this ain't true
I just can't remember
Half of what you "helped" me through
I see you can only hurt me
Feeling nothing ain't the same
I'm the one to blame
Who knew numb is worse then pain
And now with us apart
I bloom just like a rose
I'm just proud to say
That I've kept that bottle closed
I've been sober for a year now and I felt like writing something about the whole ordeal
What started at parties and small get together years ago turned into daily drinking and what feels like a whole year of my life wasted into bottles, I was easily at the worst part of my life so far and being a shy person I just never told anyone about it all until some random girl I met online got me to open up about it and for the first time In years I was crying and boom it just all hit me that I could barely remember the last week of my life, it took more than this for me to pour my last Mickey of cheap whiskey down the toilet but to the random girl who spent 30 minutes talking to some random guy thanks for helping steer my life in a better direction