I wake early
Morning light
The fear lifts a bit ...

           Gratitude!

It’s 4am
awake
I am desperate
I am color blind
The world is black and white
but I’m not ignorant
at least not tonight
I’ve got the answers
in my pocket

My Mother:

I ground my feet into Her
Gaze up at Her mountain peaks, tree tops and blue skies
Taste Her springs, swim in Her seas
Feel Her Love embrace me in the air that I breathe
Caressing my body, filling my lungs.
Her light brings life
Her dark brings depths of emotion
She blinds me yet helps me see so clearly
She inspires,
Fulfills my heart’s desires
Which is simply to feel Her
Underneath and all around me.

Mind, reality
one.
What’s
seen
reacts,
when it’s
seen.
Mental
interaction
collapses
the seen.
Mind to
matter
connections
intertwined.
Reacting.
Observation
collapse­s,
solidifies
the observed.  
Mind matter
unified,
melded
into the field.
The field
permeates.
Meshing all.
Everything
entwined,
fuzzy.
Quantum fuzz.
All is fuzzy,
flowing fog.
Riding
the wave
of reality.
Dance
of the
quantum.
Dance of
existence.

I felt solace with you
Not some happiness lie
It’s when old friends return
I’m reminded of why
I am smart,
A good person
You seemed to agree
Hold my own in contempt
But still think we were free
To be anything
More than just
Pre-destiny
Or enamored with ego
Attachment compels
Us to think ourselves more
Than a pile of cells

it’s waiting
just like us
waiting to be saved
from the world’s lust

and we did
all those joys
remember the deed
each of all our toys

the souvenirs
we carry
waking our dreams
slumbers deeply buried

on the way
we could’ve
forgotten the lists
forgotten we should’ve

now we don’t
we did but
we don’t

I see a rainbow sea of people
I see your culture; your history
I see your pain; your fear

I don't want to erase the battles you've won
I don't want to belittle your fight
I don't want to erase your uniqueness

I want to see a painting with the colors of life
I want to recognize your diversity; your struggles
I want to see your healing; your relief

I don't want blissful ignorance
I want to see the truth