My skin is itching to feel the sharp coldness run across my once clear skin,
The itching gets stronger everyday no matter how much I ignore it, I don't want to keep doing it but it's the only thing that makes everything clear.

It's an addition I wish I could drop but I don't think I ever will

I just want to be happy for once and not fake it like I have been, maybe one day I won't give into the itch

I never noticed before, how your eyes shine and sparkle when you smile. That smile is like the light I need when I'm deep in the dark

The dimples that appear when you talk make you look so innocent and handsome.

I never noticed before how I think I like you more than a friend, you will never know because I don't ever wish to lose you as a friend and I'm just happy to have you as a friend even if I can't have more then that.

Why am I so unlovable?
Why can't I find happiness?
No matter what I do everyone leaves,
I just want someone to mean it when they say they love me
What makes me unlovable?
Why do people take advantage of the care I give
I feel useless and worthless, I just want to give up so badly
Why can't I find happiness? What else do I need to do to find love

I feel lost and confused, I am struggling again and it's getting harder to keep a smile on my face.

With everything that has been going on its getting too much to handle, I wish I could have seen you one last time.

Told you I loved you one last time

I feel lost and I don't know what to do anymore

94 days ago I wrote a goodbye letter
94 days ago I nearly ended it all
The heartache I was in the tears I cried felt like a hole I couldn't get out,
94 days later I'm still here
I have changed as a person,
I'm in a better place now, I fighted through my darkest night.
I admited to my friends and they showed me care that I never thought I would see.
94 days ago opened my eyes to see the truth.
I'm glad I failed 94 days ago

We knew this would happen
It isn't any easier
Not ready to say goodbye
I hope you can stay a little longer
Not ready to see you go
But I know the fight is fading
And you're ready to fly
It doesn't make it any easier
Don't want to say goodbye

So I got told by someone that meant a lot to me that I am the problem,
Nothing I done seamed to have been good enough,
Cause I am the problem,
I worked hard to do what ever they wanted but still get told
I am the problem,
At least it's nice to know that at the end of it all everything that happened was because,
I am the problem