I used to show mad love
Used to put every soul before me
but the same ones showed no love
& the ones I went hard for, ignored me
I cared more for them than I did myself
even loved them 10x harder than I loved myself
Would’ve taken a bullet if fate needed a life as a sacrifice
but doing so only leads to a betraying price
I pulled that knife outta many backs
only to have that same knife thrown in mine, now I see how evil attacks
I never wanted to be this way but what do you expect
when I’ve been through so much pain, disappointments, & neglect
I showed more love than I was supposed to
only because I was chosen to
by the same ones that I walked thru the storm for
pushing me closer to that edge that I was headed to
I pretend not have a heart just to keep from being broken again
& I choose to stay alone just to avoid the realization of knowing you don’t have friends
This world is a game & depending on how you play, you either end up eliminated or hurt
so I’m not heartless but use my heart less being in a world so cursed

Poetic Venom

Slowly I have noticed that
My days are spilling into one.
Colours started fading out
And now my sense of taste is gone.
Painted circles on my eyes,
From endless hours of restless sleep,
I wear them like a war paint,
My battle cry; a sullen weep.
Now it doesn’t hurt as much
As it has done for many years.
Creeping numbness took ahold
Now even death knows not my fears.

Time.
Lifes.
Lies.
and cut ties.

I feel insane.
Lost.
Betrayed.
Broken.
Hurt.

I can live with my sanity, "Nevermore."

Sorry I didn't post today. I've been sick since about mid-yesterday. I might not post tomarrow.

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men tal    sani ty L O S T                       m in d  br o k e n HIM I am HIM n o i c a nt b e ple as e  just  
ki ll  M E?

If you came here for happy poems
Then u came to the wrong place
I cant pretend I'm happy
Smile and lie to your face
If you wanted to be lifted up
Move along i cant help you
I'm corrupted
If you came here for some self help
I don't have enough help to even help myself
If you came for a love story
You missed the mark
I cant find love
I guess I'm too dark
If you were seeking hope
That word is a unwelcome as a cuss word
I have to wash my mouth with soap
If you come with loneliness or pain in your heart
Dear friend read my poems and I'll read yours ,thats a start
If you come broken and bruised
Message me so i can share the burden
We can swap stories, feel less abused
If you message me
I'll cry with you , I'll comfort you
But don't think I will be inspirational or filled with hope
I will bring my true self
Together we will figure out how to cope