I missed you
My heart ached
My eyes turned to waterfalls
My stomach clenched to knots
My voice refused to make sound
My mind refused to leave you
My sleep was denied
My chest tightened
My hands turned numb
My breath was uneven
My legs gave out
My hair was crazier than usual
My face was red
My heart bled
I wished I was dead
That was before, when I missed you

When asked what they see in you
They'll say
Your smile is trustworthy
You give mom hugs
Your looks captivate
You excel in nearly everything
You exude confidence
You are perfect
But
There's things they don't know
Like, how you tell lies
How you sneak out for a fix
How you manipulate to get what you want
How you fight with the voices in your head
But
what can you say?
That girl in the mirror
The one that smiles a lot
The one whose heart is too big for her
The one who tries to make others happy
The one nobody can imagine sad or lonely
One stain
Two stain
Dropping like tears
When will they notice?
That it's your wrists
Crying for you

Earbuds blasting
Curls cascading down her back like a waterfall
Her black swimsuit shapes her broken frame
hugging her tight
Tighter than he did during her sleepless nights
She stood staring at the abandoned pool in front of her
Her eyes became a steady relentless stream
Filling the desolate expanse
She crumpled to her knees, emotionless
No one came here
To the empty pool
Or the girl who filled it with her tears, just to swim
Every tear held what she saw with him
Everything she experienced with him
The way he said, I love you
How he held her close when he taught her to kiss
Not yet in the pool
She already held her breath
To keep from drowning
Crawling towards the pool of tears
She looked inside
The boy was looking right back at her
One smile was all it took
Shattered, broken, irredeemable
The pool dragged her in
And she laid herself next to him
Promising to never leave
Kissing him
Just like how he taught her