let's sit and write letters
to Santa, together,

is it okay to ask Santa for a person?
i asked, empty paper but heavy heart

what do you mean?
she asked, her eyes lighted mine

i only want you, you only
i replied, she smiled

i am here with you now,
she replied, her love is undoubted

but now is not enough
i said, i was being selfish

it will never be enough
she kissed, it is okay to be greedy for love

The swing set
Oh god how I waited
For someone to come along
And shortly after
I was going to get off
The swing
Someone gave me a little push
And then a big push

But what goes up, must come down
And I most definitely
Came down

What people don’t tell you is
That when someone does push you
Eventually they’ll
Get tired

Tired of you
And your swing
And they’ll leave
Leaving you there
To slow down
Faster and faster
Until finally
You come to a complete
Stop

Life is like
A swing
It goes up and down
For however long you
Want it to

But for me
I can’t seem to push
Myself off the ground

I can’t get to the top.
So all I do is sit there
Hoping someone will come
And give me a little push
Push me to go higher and higher
I can’t wait
For that one person
To come along

I made one mistake and
It ruined us both
You were the only one
I loved and the
Only one i trusted
Now I have no one
I can’t even talk to you
And all I’m doing
Is falling

Falling and falling
Into this pit that only
You can help me out of
But I can never see you again

Teenagers make big
Mistakes but
This one might top them all
I ruined a friendship
And relationship in one day

I just sit here thinking, crying
That you will message me back
That we will find a way
Back into each other’s life
But then reality strikes
And I know,
Dear god I know,
That we will never
Be one again

I tried to isolate us from the world
To save you
But really what
I needed to be saving
You from
Was me
Because everywhere I go
Is pure destruction

I’m afraid that one day
That I'm just going to explode and
Everything I love will be
In ashes.
Everyone I love will be
Ashes.
And It'll all be my fault

So I’ll save you the trouble
And I’ll just
Keep this storm in for now
But I beg of you,
I tell you this now,

Don’t get too close.
Because the amount of energy and fire the
Storm is creating
Can’t be contained for much longer