thoughts to dump

thoughts to dump Apr 2021

there's magic within our in between,
don't deny it
one hand on the steering wheel
don't hide it
acting like your eyes are glued to the road
don't pretend, it's too late
your other hand on my thigh
while i talked about how the days are longer
because it's actually summer,
don’t argue with it,
my shirt soaked in your car smell
sweet, whatever
my songs taking over your car playlist,
taylor swift
don’t forget.
so now, how did i make you feel?
i want to know,
don’t hesitate.
because this is how you make me feel
don't you get it?

though i know, WE don't actually exist;

we were riding in a getaway car, we were flying but we never get far

thoughts to dump Mar 2021

Black Heart

Introduce me to all of your demons
Maybe they were once my acquaintances
Let me know of the bad news first
Then nevermind the good ones
Break my heart
Rip off all what's left
And don't ever try to mend it
Take everything that you'll find
I won't ask for anything in return
Because I'm okay with it
Wound what's almost healed
Let it bleed
Let me bleed for you
Leave a scar
And become my permanent mark.

you drew stars around my scars but now i'm bleeding

thoughts to dump Apr 2020

You Are So Vain

I glorify your misery
It suits you,
You were just skipping rope
And on the count of a hundred
You are so ready to trip.

I wish you all the sadness
It fits you,
You were just shuffling cards
But the joker's eyes are glaring
Now the joke is on you.

I will resent you
That's my revenge,
You can never win my world
And I want to make sure
That it's you who is losing.

#vain

thoughts to dump Mar 2020

Locked Down

I shut my door and wiped my floor
I hear the sound of the wailing horns
The day is gone, the night is cold
I close my eyes, my heart is torn

I open my window
The world is quiet and slow
I bow down my head
Trying to figure out
When will this end?

I scream at the top of my lungs
But my voice is so small
No one can hear a thing
I cannot breathe anymore

I cannot move my feet
Paralyzed and masked
From the truth
With sweat, my body is soaked

I cry my heart out
This could get worse
But how will it heal
I watch the sky, and it was never a lie

This is about how I felt after listening to Heal Our Land sang by Jamie Rivera. I cried my heart out and prayed that this crisis will soon come to an end. Sometimes when I get too busy I forget what is happening to the world and then when look at the news all over the internet, I couldn't contain my sadness. That this thing is really happening and that every day lives have been gone..

#lockdown #covid19 #pandemic

thoughts to dump Jul 2018

first time

a year ago
you came to my world
and now it's yours too
first sight you loved me in secret
while i stole moments
looking at how you fold
the sleeves of your white shirt
dazzling me with your glasses
and your dark wavy hair
so then we noticed
we started quick glances
had conversations
if had grabbed chances
with words one or two
which were slowly turning to
i love you's
ten months
an amazing journey with you
the ups and downs
we battled through
the distance of the here and there
we don't mind and fear
so do hear this in echoes
you are my one and only
i will always love you

happy 10th baby <3

#love #romance

thoughts to dump Jun 2018

the love song

when love comes along
you can put it in a song
her words are harmony
and with his voice
it’s a perfect symphony
your hearts beat as one
each stare means something
silently says,
“it’s you that i want”
and whenever your feet bring you
to all sorts of the walks of life
away or apart
that melody in your heart
will always carry you back
to where your soul belongs
where there was never a tragedy
only that perfect symphony

#love

thoughts to dump Jun 2018

home

you’ll cross the bridge
when you get there
meet that new city
like getting to know
a new friend or lover
grab its trendy deli
a new taste
or quencher of thirst
wander through
its long roads
memorize its ends and curves
say your first hi’s and hello’s
leave footprints
on its heart
but wherever your feet
tell you to go that far
i hope your mind and soul
remind you that
with me
it’s always home

home is where the heart is

#home