I existed within shadows
that lined my temple halls
surrounded by meadows
divided by walls
in darkness was I
for though there were windows
I could not see the sky
as only my sin glowed
that lit my path
yet I kept my sanity
for I could laugh.

How can you measure morality?
without a ruler
for god commands gravity
and we are fools heirs
lost with our pride
at judgements table
there's no place to hide
no seat for the wicked
no rest for the able.

On his head was a thicket
a crown which was noble
our sins have been washed
our depravity showered
our pride now quashed
and yet empowered
as he does rise
and live again
with clarity's eyes
this poem I pen.

Lost again in my head
need something to take off the edge
since I stopped taking my meds
a different distraction
a new way to get satisfaction
smile at me again
pretend you're more than just a friend
be my muse
so another path I can choose
one where I wasn't set to lose.

Be my guide dog
through my minds fog
my blind slog
up a perilous path
an endless graft
with no sight of summit
but if I don't fight I plummet
into a bottomless pit
so dimly lit
I can barely see
or hardly breathe
for I have paid the cost
now I'm completely lost.

I try to put on a brave face
like that of a mountain
yet even it can be displaced
by a mustard grain of faith.

So why am I still climbing
this imaginary ladder
when I should be flying
upon divine wings.

Trying to reach that untold treasure
within your chest
I lost the map
and never had the key
I forgot the facts
like you forgot me.

When you no longer wanted me
even though you're all I could see
I have to leave
just so that I can breathe
catch my breath
and gather the pieces which are left.

Just because we don't talk
doesn't mean I think of you less
now outlined in chalk
yet I still feel the need to impress
still wait for your reply
yes I want it to work
that's why I still try
even if I feel the hurt
and the pain
I endure it all
because I still feel the same
you can call me a fool
or any other name
just as long as you call
just as long as you remain.

You had me at a smile
no words needed
captured in exile
our eyes met
new course set
instant attraction
impulse reaction
everything else just static
one feeling, ecstatic
heart skipped not a beat
but a whole song sheet
swept off feet.

Your casual dress
no need to impress
as your beauty shines through
what happened to my brain?
i forget my name
David, who??
feels like electricity
running through my body
emotional complexity
still don't know who I be
class A, ecstasy
completely dazzled
brain still frazzled.

We got chemistry
soon to be biology
top of the class
full marks
first shivers
now sparks
extended hand
sweaty palms
nothing planned
subtle charms
hair stands on end
feel so weak
knees bend
i try to speak
voice falter
tongue tied
mouth dry
glass of water
just a mumble
brain fried
feet now stumble
reach for chair
caught off balance
all is air
failed first challenge
goodbye reality
hello gravity
you look away
feeling awkward
please stay
forever altered.

If I were a cloud drifting through space
I would never feel scared or out of place
I would float for days high in the sky
I would never need to question why
the sun would shine bright and I would glow
for all people to see far below
and when the rain came I wouldn't care
as it was tears of joy I tried to share.

Disarm with charm the arms of war
a chance to settle a thousand year score
to save mankind from blood and gore
and live in peace forever more.