rather be mentally instituted rather than medically polluted, I would rather be socially secluded rather than emotionally deluded. I would rather be myself, alone. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I bear the pain, it doesn’t mean it’s bearable. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
insane, psychologically distorted, I'm physically in pain, and I'm emotionally contorted. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I walked once
through this door But the door remains never open I felt belonging here once before But the before remains now broken © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Last stanza from my poem "Belonging", which serves as a poem on its own. (:
Intensive flow Rising high Crashing low Raging apathy Falling apart Chaotic outbreak Back to the start © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Is it safe
to say I like the black, that kills me whole and brings me back? **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I don't wish
for myself to die, but I wish that I was never born. I wouldn't die after I'm broken, but I'd be dead before I'm torn. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Thank you everyone for the support.
my life designing a border, between myself and the world of disorder. But the border was breached by a world so sick, with hearts of stone and minds of brick. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I could never be calmed
by one who's in control I could never be taught by one who's learnt it all I could never be filled by one whose heart is whole But I could only be healed by another broken soul © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
run after you and chase you day by day, because the moment they catch you they'll throw you away. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Going through all my old work I never posted from years ago. Lol
I feared the mirror on my closet
as I feared my very mind Drawn away by who I am with a terror in my reflection But I feared the closet more that had been secretly behind Where I have hidden who I was by every flaw and imperfection © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I'm scared of who I am, but more scared of who I was. (:
is my funeral mourning another loss inside, and each death is much colder than the last death I died. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
There is a world of blessing
that is awaiting to surround me, but piles of dust and ashes are the only things around me. There is a world of beauty that is awaiting to find me, but this prison of darkness has locked and confined me. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
The dusk made up of darkness
The dawn contained of light As you were the break of day I was the shadow of night The bad made up of blackness The good contained of white As I was everything wrong You were everything right © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Death whispered to Life,
"I promise, no matter how convincing you seem to them, they will always run back to me in the end." © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I'm going to cry myself to death, not sleep. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
debt feeding illness and I'm too mentally broke. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
They don't know how it feels
to awake every morning, and all they can wonder is why they had even awoken. They don't know how it feels to pick up all of their pieces, and put them back together but still feel like they're broken. They don't know how it feels to say all that they can say, and still feel like there's more but every word has been spoken. They don't know how it feels to go to sleep every night, and the only hope they have is that their eyes will not open. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I took a step
back, and I watched as you cried, because if I took a step forth, I would have watched as you died. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Sometimes being away from someone will hurt them, but being with them will **** them.
a tear that drowned the world, it was deeper than the seas. *© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
**** - love = nothing.
Love - **** = something. Love + **** = everything. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
My very own
existence is a cold and blatant crime. *© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
falling to for you the ground, hoping that someday I'd land in your arms. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
You cannot fix yourself with what
you destroyed yourself with. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I saw death flash before my eyes,
before I lived. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
So long as there's freewill,
we may never be free. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Wrote a poem for this, I like to write a poem if I love the quotation and want it to be longer. I'll post the poem another day, it's called "Freewill".
I was compelled to confide
to a world of murderous ****, so that I would never fall low as to say my eyes cannot see. I was enforced to reside among those helplessly ill, so that I would never let grow the prideful ego in me. I was astray with no guide lacking a purpose to fulfill, so that I would someday go where I'm designated to be. I was imprisoned inside and stripped of my freewill, so that I would someday know what it truly meant to be free. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
could only now suffer but can never die, because I'm too far gone to find the words for goodbye. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
This is the last stanza in one of my poems I previously deleted because I'm still working on it. Another depressing piece, I'm sorry. But it has to come out in some way, I can't bottle it all in.
You hold grudges,
as if you've never wronged anyone yourself. You bear grudges, as if you don't know how much it hurts to have one against yourself. Remember what you've done. Remember how it feels. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
And if I
were to ask God to protect me from harm, I would be asking God to protect me from myself. *© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Nobody harms you more than you harm yourself.
to end my life and take my soul, when I've become wicked and out of control, let me die now while there's still some good in me, let me be free from my ****** reality. *© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
How much do you have to hate life,
to not be scared of death? © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I try to protect your
soul from what I never could endure or take, I try to fix your mess while I make the same repeated mistake, I try to fight your wars but can't stand on my own battlefield...... because I could never fend myself, and instead I became a human shield. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
There are no limits within a dream
Insanity at its most extreme Imagination aged the child It made me strong, it made me wild I have ocean secrets growing deep They're mine to ponder, mine to keep Creativity taught and raised the kid It gave me hopes in the places I hid © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I attempt to grip
what damage leaks, and tempt myself to die for weeks. And drink what my demise will pour, then sink in pain and wait for more. I embrace the terror inside my cries, and face my hurt with gentle eyes. And to some it's found to be insane, to become immune to all my pain. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
If only there could have been
Some place of an in between That could take me for awhile To a world that I've never seen It's not that I want to come It's just I don't want to go It's not that I want a high It's just I don't want a low I don't want myself without But I don't want myself within I don't want to commit the good But I don't want to commit a sin It's not that I want to win It's just I don't want to lose It's not that I want a mystery It's just I don't want the clues I don't want to say hello But I don't want to say goodbye I don't want myself to live But I don't want myself to die If only there could have been Some place of an in between That could take me for awhile To a world that I've never seen © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Our society has fallen in love
with being in love. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I can't handle
another death, leaving me out here cold and alone. And I can't handle another mourn, leaving me lifeless as a hollow stone. I can't handle another grievance, letting you go to a world unknown. Because to save your precious life, I would give infinite deaths of my own. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
The innocence in my
nature robbed me of all that I ever had. My pure intentions always left me alone and misunderstood. I used to be a good person afraid of all that was deemed bad. But now I'm a bad person afraid of all that was deemed good. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Inspiration was never
derived from what I saw and admired, never from what I felt and desired. I found it in a place where I was weak and prone, with broken bones, unknown to the world and alone on my own. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I could be most deserving to die
but I can't help to feel this way, to wish a darkness in every eye that had locked with yours today. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
No eye may gaze upon your beauty except my own. :D
There is no you
and there is no me, There is only us and there is only we, There is no letting go of me and you, When life was only made for just us two. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Karma is simply not a concept you
believe in, or a concept you disbelieve in. It is not a matter of faith or sorcery. Karma is the outcome of your actions and your words. And the results of your actions and your words can occur today or in an infinite amount of years. A cycle of your making. That is Karma. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
What goes around, comes around.
You reap what you sow.
I'm scared of the tears
that I don't cry The days like this that I don't die I'm scared of the pain that slips my mind It comes back harder than what I left behind © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Feels good to write again.
Thank you everyone for your support. (:
Another day has risen
with me questioning why, what is the true reason that I still exist here? Trapped in this prison wishing that I would die, just watching each season passing through the year. But how much stronger can I make myself shine, when my darkness will find its way back around? Because I can no longer pretend that I'm fine, when I'm losing my mind crumbling into the ground. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
Your eyes are my weakness.
Your scent is my proneness. Your lips are my vulnerability. Your hair is my susceptibility. Your voice is my instability. Your touch is my humility. Your **** is my inferiority. Your love is my superiority.
The twin poem for "Equations". Love is greater than ***.
I may not be
able to believe many things, but if there's one thing that I can believe, it's that I remain a puppet on your strings, because it's your love that I long to retrieve. Because it's your love that drives my heart to insanity, it drives me back to you, and your love prevails over the whole of humanity, regardless of what you do. *© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
I didn't bury it or leave it behind
since the day that you and I met, it didn't slip right through my mind nor was I leading myself to forget. I had forgiven you just as you asked but it wasn't all diminished for life, for I wouldn't so easily have masked how you had stabbed me with a knife. **© Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)
born a monster, I was raised a monster. © Sarah Ahmed (ThePoet)