In desperation
To fill this empty *****
I invented you

If I ....had the means I would clean these city streets.

If I ..... Could find the right words I would speak to our young teens.

If I ..... could paint a picture I'd paint it
on a wall .
A picture with you ,him and me.
Laughing ,hugging and living carefree.

All the colors, all the faces ,all the different type of races.... Lets unite and
grow strong, so we can take all these wrongs and make things right.

Because no matter what at the end of the day , its all about us..... The Human Race........

I hate every part of me
I hate going through life that way
I stay awake in the middle of the night
While everyone else is asleep
I sit in a puddle of self loathing

I have no desire to speak to anyone
No desire for that at all
I'm a prison in my own home
I don't want them and they don't want me
What a terrible life to lead

Everyone is finding fault with me
They're always so disappointed
Makes me feel worthless and stupid
Why should I try any longer
I gave up a long time ago

My blood is my refuge
If anybody knows my pain is real, it is me
It is never something they can take away
It is all that I have, the scars and the darkness
Without it, I'm lonely

Don't sit there and tell me that I'm fine
That I have it made
None of that means **** when I'm holding this blade
Your pointless words and hateful glares
The most perfect triggers

Thank you for bringing me closer to my pain
And further away from you