Life's not laundry.
Don't separate
The colours
From the whites.

If I seem distant it's
because I am.
I abandon this city
like rain down gutters
trying to get back
to a home, a field, a shore,
no traffic, no smoke
where air is pure
& lungs breathe deep,
in a rhythm
untarnished by
tarmac & brick;
modernity's grip
that looks for life
& buries it, forgets
Earth has a pulse
a heart that beats
beneath us.

I don't know how much more I can take

"****!
Why do I bother?"

And every time I see you now
It's a brand new chance
To fall in love
For the very first time
All over again.

I kissed a girl.
and it was something I did not enjoy.
It felt off,
like playing with my brothers toy....
because I was a girl,
and she was no boy.