A few months back
I was a total wreck
A few mistakes ago
I was in a hell hole alone
A few echoes flashing back
tore me to bits and pieces
But a few look aways syne
I caught your eyes
and you caught my smile
Since then I felt brighter
your words in bliss
and actions I wouldn't want to miss
cheesy lines
that crack up my laugh
and most especially the sincerity
you bring that send me to cloud 9
I don't want our everyday's to become sometimes
nor would I want you to stay away
when I maybe pushing you away
I can't say the reasons why I'm holding back
but just stay in there cause I won't turn my back

It's been 12 months
since I've felt this way
still lost and undecided
by you who came

It's been 12 months
since I felt the ache
from words turned to lies
that you made

It's been 12 months
but I'm still here
coming back to you
even if you're far from here

It's been 12 months
but I can't barely stop
the flashbacks and echoes
that tears my heart

It's been 12 months
but I'm still caught in between
yet slowly getting over it
is still a burden to feel

It's been 12 long months since you chose to getaway...but I'm still hanging alone in here, by the way.

Restarting...

It's scary
how you can
hold me back
without even trying too.

The best way to not get your heart broken is to pretend you don't have one.
One said.

But every time you show up,
you remind me that
perhaps,*
Some people are worth having a heart for.

It's funny because as poetic as I am
And how much time I spent thinking of him in the wee hours of the night
I could still only think of one word to describe him
And that word
Is
Heartless.