Blessed hatred
push me in
As many more mourn my stand
It's too high
cliche
controlling
Confusing
But I love it.

It built me up,
Gave me rules that changed my exsistence
I might not follow through
But the pang of guilt at deserting reminds me of my stand....

It gave me values
Love,
Life,
and reasons for actions

My words depend on it
my appearance, actions and all
It's not boring as they say
But the excitement of growing pushes me on
                          
I might seem weird
wacky
Or brain washed
but the courage to face each day
my life has gotten
Living by Grace bound by laws....