Dear Aurelia
Do you still remember
The day when I intended to get my self hurt?
With the two bladed knife I have
That I said it will protect myself
Now I want you to look at my arms
Because of you, there is no more blood, scratch and scars
Dear Aurelia
Even if you are not mine
Or if you never put me in your mind
I still miss you very much
But I can’t say that directly to you, because I have no guts
I’m just a coward
Who did mistakes, sins and dream bigger
Dear Aurelia
When I heard you already have a lover
Who is cooler, smarter and better
The pain in my chest won’t stop until now
My mood goes down down and down
I am now broken-hearted
All the colors I saw slowly turns faded
Dear Aurelia
Listen to my heart for once
By reading my feelings as I poured my emotion into this poem I’ve done
This poem should’ve been done and sent to Aurelia since 2015. But I didn’t finish it on time and the only thing I could do is just posting it in the internet and hoping she will read this poem