No one reads the long poems..but I think this is worth it...then again I'm the (biased) poet
I've never been in love
uhh so what?
A Poet
whose never actually said
"I love you"
Ok..No..
I've done that
but its closely chased by
"But I'm not IN love with you"
Fear
With rejection likely imminent
I shy away from such overt acts
I'd rather have you
and pretend not to love you
then lose you in honesty
So...yea
I'm a poet that's never
been *"IN" love
We're always
"not there yet"
or..
"just friends"
who do all the things that lovers do
No...not just "benefits"
That...
I don't allow
you gutter minds
Gray area *******
where we
Care deeply?
deeper than most
Support?
anything the other needs
commitment?
check
never wavering
and trust?
uh huh
a given
my being..yours
you being...yours
re-read that if you missed it
I'd rather have you
in my presence and pretend
then lose you in honesty
b/c without you it feels like..
my being is gone
To you..
I've NEVER considered
such ridiculous ideas of
Love
But to my pages..
you're My Mornings
I've always loved me
But funny thing...
I began to value me
I realized
maybe I didn't love me?
And then I started
you know...
really loving myself
honesty took you
and our love was like mourning
I'm just a Poet that's never been in love
but a believer in it
and my love poems have not a bit of reality
Untarnished by experience
I imagine it
beautiful
like Morning
*SEE PART 1: Love Like Morning
READ PART 1: Love Like Morning
If you got to the end THANK YOU!! : ) I hope this comforts someone loving themselves more than wanting to play at being in love. Trust me it'll be worth it... not that I know. :)