I’m trying too hard
But I’m not trying hard enough
Confused
On what I should and shouldn’t do
Conflicted
On my emotions towards others
And towards myself

I love
Then I hate that I love
I wonder if I truly love
Or if I just want love
Desperate
To have that love from someone else
And for that love to be mutual

Repetition
Everything I’m going through
I’ve already been through
Questioning
Whether or not it’ll go through again
Expecting something different
Hoping for something different