I was watching October sky in mid July when I lost my self control

It's kind of funny how time goes by and we wonder why and where the **** did it go?

I'm sick of having my friends die
Been thinking of old times
They play like a movie in my brain
Why can't I just close my eyes so time can heal and waste away?


I can't seem to let it go

love today looks like
Balance & Composure
and a little bit of The Maine
some Jhene Aiko
and Jessie Ware.
it looks like letting myself feel everything,
but staying silent.
all these questions
that will never have answers.
all this holding when the middle is empty.
today I am dressed in red,
feeling blue.
wishing i tried to put on lipstick.