"Please... Help me escape this reality and take me away;
So far away, send me to the world of fantasy. "

"Give me a door to the world of illusion, please..."

"Send me there, in hopes that I  find something that could fill that dissatisfied void inside of me,"

I'm such a coward. Who knew I had such feeble feelings?

Things like this aren't so necessary, right;?

Daydreaming is all I had;
And there's something I wanted to reach so bad.

I clutch onto the bars that keep me isolated. I see that ray of light;
it was merely inches away, yet it feels like miles apart from me.

Should I go and grasp for it?

Escape this prison of my mind and live in a life full of satisfaction?

Or will this thinking even get me far?

What if I failed?

Who will come to my rescue?

Who will save me from drowning in an ocean with no water as air stopped flowing down my lungs?

Can this heaviness be lifted?
This void within my chest?

If I was set free, who will accompany me in a vast world like this?

With this coop of thought that I have;
I'm no better than that person who was in a room with no doors, just four corners.

Judgment, to describe someone in a good or bad way
Let’s start with GOOD JUDGMENT
This kind of judgment is positive why? Coz their describing you in a way that you will not be hurt
Not be hurt, but deep inside them there’s a BAD JUDGEMENT
They’re telling you all the positive vibes when you’re in front of them
Little do you know, they’re telling negative vibes behind your back

I personally encounter these 2 types of judgment
Telling you something like “HOW ADORABLE, WOW! SO INTELLIGENT, I WISH I COULD BE YOU” blah..blah..blah
Then after that “YOU MEAN THAT GIRL! YEAH! SHE’S TOO CONFIDENT ABOUT HERSELF, SHE GOT ALL THE PRAISE, AND SHE ALWAYS STICK WITH HIM! I ENVY HER! ”
Tsk! ENVY yourself! I’m not confident about myself; I’m not a god for me to be praise, and I STICK WITH HIM BECAUSE I’M COMFORTABLE WITH MY “GUY FRIEND” and not comfortable with your side
Wanna know why I’m more comfortable with a man than a woman?
Because some women judge you behind your back
Why can’t you say all of that in front of me? Are you afraid? Now you’re telling me no! LIAR! Yes you are afraid, because you can’t say those mean words in front me
Why are you afraid? Because I might do something that you don’t want to encounter? If you don’t want to encounter that other side of me THEN STOP! It will be better if you stop doing your bad JUDGMENTS against me!
You know what? I can’t get you. How can you do that dual personality of yours?
I don’t know if you’re jealous, angry, or just playing with me
I’m not a toy for me to be played by someone like you
Can you just please tell me the reason behind your judgments?
Or is it too hard for you to tell me?
You’re not going to tell me then fine, I don’t need someone like you in my life

The times that I can’t take it anymore
My heart keeps saying me to explode but my mind keeps reminding me to be more patient
Now that I already followed my heart
You already saw the half of me
Now that I throw all the aches that I kept in my heart
I thank you for making me strong
After making me strong…
I forgive you…