basil

basil Jul 2019

cullen

a tomb
the one i love exists
in my memory.
i suddenly remember.

#death

basil Jul 2019

read me

read my words.
not because i want you to, but because i want you to know my mind.

i hope that one day,
you’ll find
someone that loves you better than i,
someone that you won’t comfort with lies.

read my words,
read my lips.

i miss the way you grabbed my hips.
i miss the way you'd kiss me.

and my,
oh my!
to think of what we could have been!

read my words,
because i want you to know.

i love everything about you.
from your head
to your toes.

i want you to know
my mind.

#love

basil Jul 2019

untitled 1

even after everything
i wouldn’t go back
to change a thing

#breakups #love

basil Jul 2019

no

i told her,
she said
“do you want to take any legal action?”
i said
no
because i didn’t want to hurt you

i told her,
she said
it’s okay,
that people would want to explore my body.

i told you,
no,
i don’t want to do that anymore

i told you
no
and
you laughed.

#sexualabuse #abuse

basil Jun 2019

daddy's doll

i still hear his footsteps walking down the hall
if only i wasn’t stuck
being my daddy’s doll

stop, stop!!
i know you hear me call.
but shut up and be pretty,
stay my daddy’s doll

i want it to end,
please stop!
it isn’t fair!
i don’t like it
when daddy pulls my hair.

if i hide under the covers
and pretend that i’m not here,
do you think my daddy
would even come near?

i still hear his footsteps walking down the hall
if only i wasn’t stuck
being my daddy’s doll.

this is 100% fictional

#**** #pain #hurt

basil Jun 2019

fine

i swear to you,
i’ll be fine
(and an assortment of other lies)

#hurt #pain

basil Jun 2019

hurt

don’t say i did it to hurt you
because, really, i didn’t
my only intention
was to hurt myself

#pain #hurt #sad