why do you insist on breaking my heart...
i've been there for you, right from the start.
i did what i thought was best for you,
and this what you wanna put me through?
i changed alot, to be who you need.
but you had no interest in changing for me.
i tried so hard to give you my best.
but it wasn't enough, you put me to the test.
my love is something i don't wanna hide,
but you always made me keep it inside.
and all i wanted was to scream to the world,
that you were my guy, and i was your girl.
but i was made to feel like i was a shame,
and after a while, it felt like a game.
it felt like a game that i was loosing,
and through it all, my heart was bruising.
and when i asked for a little more,
you directed me towards the door.
so eventually i had to break,
cause there's only so much i can take.
and what els is there left for a girl to think,
except inevitably, we were going to sink.
and now your making me feel like ****,
well **** that noise, i'm done with this.

i read you words a hundred times
i still can't shake them from my mind
they'll haunt me till the day i die
blind-sighted by empty goodbyes

would you like to come over and get drunk?
and talk about feelings and cry about life.
we can share our greatest dreams, and our biggest fears.
i could tell you about how much i love my friends,
or how much i need someone close,
and how i fear falling in love again.
i could tell you about how i love people a little too much,
and want to constantly write poetry about every beautiful thing that i see.
we could talk about the irreplaceable, unconditional love our pets give us,
or how magnificent the sky looks as it transforms into a new day.
i could tell you about how destructive to myself i am,
and how i so recklessly wear my heart on my sleeve,
hoping that you will you see,
and understand some part of me.
what would you see...
what you you say...
what would you show..
and after you know...
would you still wanna go...

i am in seventh heaven
on cloud nine
walking on air
in transports of delight

i am happy as a clam
having a whale of a time
buzzing with excitement
and stoked on life

i am on top of the world
and over the moon
tickled pink
and walking on sunshine

i am in raptures
just beside myself
jumping for joy
having the time of my life

i am so elated
blissed out
thrilled
and happy
ecstatic
euphoric
gleeful
and sappy

over joyed
and delighted
and slightly misguided
but these are the feelings
that you have ignited

This is the glory light
When sore eyes land your sight
And I can see what's ahead
I'll picture you in my bed
With your clothes on the floor
For I want nothing more
Nothing less then your grace
And that smile on your face
When it wakes in the shine
Of the sweet morning time
& I can see in your eyes
That I'm yours and your mine

It hurts to know
That one day
You will leave me
And much sooner
Then is fair
And much sooner
Then either of us
Could ever want

I want to be
In my golden years
With my best friend
To have you in my life
Until the cold, quiet, end
But alas I cannot
Because time cannot stop

It seems like a cruel thing
To do to your heart
To get into these kinda relationships
With inevitable heartache at the end
But I've never learned so much
About patience, compassion, loyalty
Or laughed so hard
Then I have with you

I would do it all again
It just hurts to know
That you won't be there for it all
That one day
Our time together will be up
And I'll have to feel the pain
Of watching you leave this earth

I can't picture life without you
But one day I'm gonna have to
One day all your kisses will be gone
And there will be nobody
To warm my spot in bed
And nobody
To greet me in the morning
Or protect me in the night
And that just ain't right
No that just ain't right

sometimes it's so hard to wake up,
leave your dreams, to a scene where you want to throw up.
you try to ignore all the grim and the grime,
you work, and you waste, & you rush & loose time.

sometimes it's hard to be happy,
when your boss is a **** , & your salaries ******.
and you get no time to rewind or slow down,
there are bills you should pay, but you wanna leave town.

sometimes it's hard to breathe,
all the hate and the lies, it's so hard to conceive.
doesn't anyone care there are children who cry,
they need food, they need love, but we sit as they die.

sometimes it's hard to feel sane,
when spend your whole day doing things that you hate.
you cheat, & you lie, & you steal, & you cuss,
you question & judge, you don't know how to trust.

i don't know what is real..
every time i wake up, it just feels so surreal.
what am i looking to find..
just a little peace of mind,
i'm in search of the sublime.

sometimes it's hard to let go,
of the things that you love, of the love that you know.
when you get torn apart, when your down on your knees,
its so hard to find hope, to find joy, to find peace

sometimes it's hard to ignore,
all the pain, & the death, & the hate in the world.
you turn on your tv, and its all the you see,
you wish you could help, but you cant so you weep.

sometimes its hard to feel safe,
when you sitting at home and then soldiers invade.
or your trying to fight for your right to be free,
but the cops throw you down, cause they're running the streets.

sometimes it's hard to escape,
when you got no money, and you got no plane.
so you try to do drugs, so you don't have to deal,
with the fact that your trapped, and don't know how to feel.

i don't know what is real...
every time i wake up, it just feels so surreal.
what am i looking to find...
just a little peace of mind,
i'm in search of the sublime.

kiss me under the stars
we will hold tight
in the moon's light

kiss me under the sheets
in the morning time
bathed in sunrise

kiss me under the trees
as the leaves fall
and my breath stalls

kiss me under city lights
as the world cheers
we are born here

the end nears
another year
souls catch fire
and give light
to new solutions
and resolutions
for new ways
and better days

when I write love poetry
I imagine a beautiful woman
sitting at a table
across a scattered bunch of souls
at a random diner
in a random place
reading a book
I see her
and I am immobilized
by the sudden rush of blood
and the sudden feeling of longing
and with every page she turns
both grow stronger inside me
she's the kinda woman
who's soul shines
right through her skin
with a loud silence
who unintentionally captivates
with her grace of an angel
then she looks at me
and smiles
oh **** how she smiles
and all I can think to do is write
write of the way
she makes me forget my past
and my pain
because they are out felt
by the feeling
that everything was leading me
to this woman
and that smile
write of the way
I am feeling right now
like a meteor of cosmic beauty
just shot from the sky
down into the seat
that's in front of me
write of the way
I can see every moment together
that lies before us
all the laughter
the touching
the passion
the love
the entire rest of my life with her
is in this pen
the all and every effect
of her in-conceived beauty
every feeling she inspires
every thought she lures
is in this pen
and I could sit until dawn
and just write all of it out
in pages and books
stained with tears
and sweat
and love
all for her to read
in hopes that it will ignite
the same feeling
of fire in her heart
the same feeling
of pins under her skin
the same taste of love on her tongue
that I feel when I look at her
that I capture when I write my poetry ...

and maybe one day
my words will come to life
my poetry will breathe
and I won't need to imagine a beauty
I have not yet found to exists
and my words will stand before me
in all of their guts and glory
and that will be all she wrote
or maybe one day
I will have to become that beauty myself
only time can really tell
will I manifest my imaginations
or will the creator become the creation

life
the whirlwind
the uncertainty
the madness
but the passion
oh the passion
to survive it
to make the most of it
to make the most of ourselves
it is thriving and well
but you know don't you
that you are already everything
you have yet to become
you are an empty vessel
of opportunity & potential
waiting to be discovered & explored
a treasure chest
of characters & stories
waiting to be played out
you are manifesting the manual
and you are not just one thing
you are all things
you are the writer &the; director
the actor & the audience
the set & the stage
you are the creator & the creation
a magnificent magician
with an endless imagination

hey brown eyes,
why don't you hop inside
and we can take a ride
to where the dreamers jive.

to weird to live, too rare to die.

all i have now
are cold sheets
& a half empty bed
with half empty tea mugs
littering the floor
like land mines
surrounding my mattress
that now feels more like
a life raft
then anything els
a life raft that i jumped into
to espcape the war zone
that had now become my life
this matress
is the only thing keeping me
from drowning into my sadness
from falling into the madness

all i have now
are the cries of dogs
late at night
are the cries of my heart
late at night
like the saddest song
you've ever heard
because they don't understand
why the love was lost
how can you loose something
that was once everything
and they try to out cry one another
until they are both too exhuasted
to do anything but sleep

all i have now
are the the painful memories
and broken dreams
of everything we use to be
to remind me of how quickly we fell
how blindly we flew
and how badly we failed
all i have are songs
that i can never play again
because visions of you
will play in my head
and i'll need to drink enough liqour
too drown it all out
hand me that whiskey
i need to pass out
now how many times
will i take this foolish leap
before i finally get tired
of the blood on my teeth

all i can do
is do my best
and try my hardest
through all these tests

you went
from being my everything
to being my nothing
so fast
it made my head spin
and my heart ache
and my face cringe
and my voice shake
and my eyes sting
and my earth quake
and my ears ring
and my pain wake

you went
from being me best friend
to my worst enemy
so fast
that i was left where i stand
with tears on my cheeks
holdin a shadows hand
and feeling so weak
all my colours gone bland
you gave up on me
didn't me a chance

you went
from being my biggest fan
to my biggest source of pain
so fast
that afterwards
i could feel nothing
but question everything
i believed nothing
but thought of everything
i was treated like nothing
you were treated like everything
i was given nothing
but in the end... i got everything

The different
The judged
The lost
& The weird
Hear the call of my heart
And follow me here
I'm in love with the strange
I am queen of the freaks
Surrender yourself
And you can finally speak
Relinquish your fears
Succumb to the sining
I'll take you in
& Soothe you with singing
My voice can heal souls
& My heart's made of crystal
It can't be broken or beaten
By man, arrow, or pistol
I'm impervious to others
With their whispers & their stares
They will judge us regardless
So I've learned not too care
I just live for the odd ones
And take care of the stangelings
Cause Ive found they're the ones
That make this world amazing
And I've come to believe
They're hidden gems of this earth
They give life new meaning
& They give life it's worth
If you are a weird one
Then please come to me
I'll hear all your stories
& Give you warm company
Your sadness I'll chase
Your knots I will kneed
Your heart I will take
Your mind I will read
I will take in your soul
And treat you like gold
And you'll never again
Have no one to hold
Or feel rejection stab
Or loneliness sting
Cause I'm here to make you,
To give you,
My everything

if i shall die today

i will have lived a thousand lifetimes of happy bliss

contained within that single passing moment 

of unspoken, unending, beauty.

that moment 

when our eyes first met 

across that ocean of blurred lights and faces 

and i stood there

with my naked soul

heart like a humming bird

suspended in time.

that moment 

when everything fell into place

and simultaneously all fell away

and i stood there

lost in the reality 

of your breathtaking existence.

was i at all born before that day

that moment, that face
that brought life to theses bones

breath to these lungs

words to this paper

and reason to this old and weary soul.

yes if i shall die today

i will have lived a thousand times more 

then any one who has ever died before

for i have danced in your grace 

long enough to know, to not fear fate.

please don't tell me
how to feel
I'm tryin my hardest
to keep it real
please don't tell me
who I can love
what gives you the notion
that you are above
let me love,
& let me live
let me give
all that I have to give
I wanna learn
all that there is
I wanna dance
in natures winds
If I don't fall fast
then I don't fall
I want a whirlwind of life
Or nothing at all
I don't wanna be bland
I wanna dress for the ball
Have a blast
Make things last
Wear my life proud and tall
And my heart on my sleeve
Always waiting to be taken
Because life's for takin chances
And here it is in the making

Lately I've felt like I've been watching my life unfold from outside of myself...
I'm trying to stay focused
But underneath I am so lost
My palms are clenched
My gut is wrenched
I am so pained
I am so scared
I am so angry
But I would never admit it
& I wouldn't let a single drop of it touch anyone els but me
*******
Why must I feel so deeply
Why can't I just let go more easily
Why must I crave the tender touch of another so bad it defeats me...
I can't go on like thing for long..
But I know moments like these for me
Are usually just temporary in the grander scheme
But when they come, oh they come
Like the roar of thunder and vicious waves in my heart
And tears the size of saucers
And all I can do is take it in & not let it take me in with it
I hold on to a song or a poem or a friend
Something i know won't let me forget who I am or where I'm going
And eventually I make it through
I find my way back into my body
I can feel myself again
& I hope that time comes soon...

i have an immense urge to help
a relentless need to give
an incurable desire to heal
and a undying will to love

you can't stop me
i can't even stop me
please somebody stop me

I can no longer do this dance with you
I must take off these worn out dancin shoes
my feet are tired
as is my heart
thought we had it this time
guess I'm not very smart
but for the sake of my heart
& for the sake of my mind
I'll let this ship sail
I'll leave it behind
after a certain amount of try's
you have to give up
what you thought might be love
was probably just lust
and now there's no one to trust
another one bites the dust
another lost chance
for romance
but move onwards I must

love gives life reason
it gives it meaning,
& worth.
it diminishes the pain of being alive.
& makes everything more beautiful.
it makes the world feel limitless,
and it makes you feel infinite.
it makes the nonsense into perfect sense,
& the bad things turn better.
& even though we should already know, it confirms that we are special, and wanted, and needed on this earth.
we have a soul purpose and that is to love and be loved.
love is the ultimate force of creation.
it has the power to bring new life into existence,
the power of gods one might say,
& it lies within us, within our love.
through love and lack there of,
we learn some of the best lessons life has to offer us.
it never asks for anything back,
it is unconditional and completely natural.
people, plants, animals, the universe, we all need love and care to continue living.
and although we all need and desire love,
we hesitate to give and feel it fully.
we are afraid of using it, loosing it, or abusing it.
we fear rejection and the unknown.
but really nothing should be more comforting and familiar to you then the feeling of love.
it's somewhat of a novelty now,
manufactured love,
bought and sold and ready to go.
but money can't by love, nobody can.
it's only real if it comes from within.
but people are so guarded to go within is a very difficult task,
we're all wearing these masks.
but if everyone tried,
to listen instead of ignore
to give instead of take
to help instead of hinder or harm
and to love instead of hate
then living wouldn't be so hard.
you should try to positively effect every human you cross paths with.
notice, embrace, and respect the journey they are on.
take the opportunity to learn and experience something or someone  outside of your familiar routine life.
share your love with the world and it will share its love with you.
empty your vessel and you will be refilled with wondrous beauty and enlightenment.
because that's what love is,
it's enlightenment,
for your body, mind, and spirit.
so be love, be hope, & be kindness.
we can love through our blindness.
you be here for me, and Ill be there for you
& the next time we meet we will learn and love together.

'love is everywhere, it has no distance,
all you have to do is stop the resistance.'

if you can see this
then see me
if you can hear this
then hear me
if you can feel this
then feel me
why do you need to be on guard
why does it have to be so hard

people have been scaring and wearing me out.
doesn't anyone hear the cries & the shouts?
seems like nobody has anymore room for compassion,
no remorse, no guilt, just hate filled passion.
you've all put your heart up on a shelf,
you can't even produce any love for yourself.
but mines still here, and oh how it aches.
at the lack of kindness that has now taken place.
but you know what, this is just me..
and this is how I chose to be.
trying so hard to take care of all els,
in a world where it's every man for them self.
but it's a burden that I choose to bare,
cause you know.. someones gotta care.

lay with me,
rest your bones.
here you are loved,
here you are home.
smells like peace,
tastes like fire.
feel the heat,
of sweet desire.
here hearts race,
and time goes slow.
sparks fly high,
and bodies flow.
locked eyes,
squeezed thighs,
we feels so high.
we're young,
and crazy,
and so alive.

is it bad
that i search for the scent
you leave behind
for long after you're gone
that sweet smell
of something wonderful
you leave behind
that lingers in my mind

is it bad
that i long to hear
the sound of your voice
in my ear drums
like the sweetest noise
to ever grace ones ears
the soundtrack to my slumbers
the hum in my hymns

is it bad
that i crave your taste
even tho
i haven't yet tasted you
& even tho
you will probably give me
the worst toothache
i've ever had

is it bad
that i tremble for your touch
that i shake and ache
with every pore
needing more
more self-control
but less air & space
between our bodies
and the heat they make

is it bad
that i fantasize
about your beautiful eyes
lust locked with mine
our limbs intertwined
about sharing one heart
and sharing one mind
or just sharing time

is it bad
that i blush
when we touch
that i forget where i am
whenever i am with you
that i forget where i once was
and where i am going too
because all i feel is you

is it good to be bad?
if it is, then i'm glad
because these feelings i hide
are all that i have

I want to burn my feelings alive
They are turning me
Into who I never we wanted to be
I hate that I love you
That I lust you
At all times
In every way
And there's nothing I can do or say
To erase or change
The things that happened between us
It's torture
Pure torture
Worse then
The agony
In your plea
When you begged me
To stay
For just one more day
And take away the pain
Of knowing we will never be the way
We thought we'd be
And that eventually we'd have to let go
We'd have to say no
And turn away
Forever changed by each others ways

my heart's an oasis
my veins, rivers
flowing my love
to my brain
where it drains
out of my mouth
and you breathe it in
in quenches your thirst
to find love
to taste divinity
to feel infinity
how does it taste?
like adrenaline and blood

dance me into the light of your ruby heart.

for i've never been painted a more beautiful shade of love.

i’ve gone blind to any sight but yours. 

never felt so blissfully undone.

the world is just not romantic enough for me
which is why i must constantly turn it to poetry

i want more love
more passion
more empathy
more romance
and more wine
i want to dance with the divine
until the end of time
and seize this wondrous moment of mine

i want people dancing in the streets
under a spotlight made of moonlight

i want birds singing me awake every day
after dreaming of sensual delights all night

i want strangers laughing & holding hands
just because they are headed in the same direction

i want beggars on the streets to have their pockets filled
because people just won't stop giving
and so maybe they can ask for real change instead

i want tears falling from blissful eyes
and kindness used a s a currency

i want laughter to be the music we make
and music that is always playing the notes we need to feel
in the background of all our experiences
transmitting from stars that children whisper wishes to at night

i want hands clapping for all the lovers high above
and for all the heartbroken who were crushed by love

i want cups raised for the riskers and tryers
the fallen and the flyers,
for the chance takers, and the luck makers,
and for those who just brighten up the night
with their own righteous light

i want all the wine to be drank all of the time
and i want nothing left to wear but nakedness

i want our eyes to only see through passion & compassion coloured glasses
and our own skin seen and worn as the most beautiful of fashions

i want everyone to be in a love affair with nature & with themselves

i want a life lived in romance and nothing els.

my love is cursed.
my heart is the worst.

a love so deep nobody could ever understand.
and a heart so big that I can barely stand.

and one day i know i'll be crushed by it all.
and one day i know it will be my downfall.

cause there's not enough room for anything els.
and it seems along the way i've forgotten myself.

swallowed up my need to constantly give.
cause in my head & my heart,
it's the reason i live.

i want a love that is pure & raw
i want a passion that is unattached & wild
i want a loyalty that is truthful & undoubted
i want a connection that is founded in friendship but retires in love
i want a partner that i can become a master of the universe with
and we will live above all the lies
and the jealous
and the vindictiveness
of modern relationships
we will live and love like the gods we were born to be
i want a life of romance and travel
of creation and expression
of being unraveled
and naked and bare
and be taken in
in all of my everythingness
& in all of my nothingness
without question or hesitation
just compassion sparked elation
i want to live in innocence by sun light
and in sin by star light
i want a love that's big enough to save the world
but not so big that i can't save myself
a love too deep to even fathom or understand or relay by words
but one that would never drown you
in need, attachment, obsession, or sacrifice
i want something i fear will never truly be
as more then just a figment of all my fantasies
i will wait and wander and meet all i can meet
and until i find the one i want, i'll be the one for me.

and i will run outta breath
before i run outta love
i can't be stopped by death
because i came from above
and i will run outta time
before i run outta faith
cause i can only see soul
when i look at your face

with feelings so strong & unexplainable,
it's hard for me to put them to words,
and even harder for me to share them with you..

i fear the effects they may have,
the hearts they may take,
the lives they could make or break…

i don't understand why anything happens the way that it does,
or how & why we fall in and out of love,
or crave the things we don't have,
or why are we so clueless to are reason for being here…

it's tiring being in two places at once.
inside two hearts.
its painful.

you can't blind the eyes
of my inner child
my heart will stay wild
no matter how many broken hearts
and broken bones
this mean world throws at me
because i got the love in me
that has the power
to change this world
if only i knew how to share it right
but i get caught up in romance
and the heat of the night
and it takes up all the love in me
cause then i give all exclusively
and all i am doing is limiting
my capacity for experience
and all i am doing is limiting
my capacity for love
by only sharing it with one

both these roads are grassy green,
but which is for the taking?
after all the pain i've seen,
i can't do much more breaking.
it's hard being a daisy,
you don't know who to trust.
just because your lovely,
doesn't mean you won't be plucked.

there's something in you
behind your eyes
pleading & needing me to stay
to take your pain away
to distract from all you hate
to show you a different way

& there's something in me
behind my eyes
that wants to be,
that needs to be,
your sweet relief, your remedy
the everything that you so need

and there i was

falling

falling

falling

and there you were

a sea of love

ready to catch me

i fall into you

and we become one

fear is a distant memory

creation spikes the sea

we swim in bliss

in flow

in love

what is love
baby don't hurt me
or try to convert me
into something i'm not

what is love
baby don't hurt me
please don't desert me
your all that i've got

I've alway envied those who have artistic talents.
I can't draw or paint for the life of me.
But I find it so very beautiful and I admire it heatedly.
I yearn to be able to make masterpieces so emotion invoking that people weep at their knees.
I want to learn what words they whispers to the colours that make them transform into life .
& In which ways do they caress the page so that every passionate stroke is felt by me when I see it.
One time I looked at a painting so captivating I swear I saw God where the colours collided together.
And all I could do was laugh.
Because it also looked like myself.
And everyone else.
And it showed me something I had never seen before.
In all the colours and shapes and lines, coming together to form a beautiful masterpiece.
Every human being a contributing piece.
I saw it all in it's entirety.
&Ala;; I may never know the rich & deep pleasures of being an artist.
But I can be the artist of my own life.
I can manifest a life so colourful & beautiful that people might ask me for a little piece of it.
So that they can bring it home and hang it on their walls.
To inspire them to be creative & to reach for the paint too.

don't tell me how to look
don't tell me how to live
you could count with just one hand
the amount of ***** i give
i don't exist for you
but i do exist for me
so don't tell me who i am
cause i'm who i want to be

my head
my heart
my head
my heart
I just don't know
where to start
or which is which
or what is what
all I know is
I've had enough
which is louder
which hurts more
where's the order
I feel absurd
where do I start
where do I end
what do I save
and what do I send
these feelings
these thoughts
are all that I got
and the love that I have
can't be stolen or bought
I don't know down from up
but make living look good
and I don't always say
the things that I should
but if you were to get
under my skin
you would see every scar
you would hear every sin
and now you might be confused
at what this poem is about
I don't think there's a subject
and a meaning, I doubt
cause my mind is in warfare
And it's fighting itself
my words are all tangled
and my heart hurts like hell
I'm trying to make sense
but is quite hard to tell
I feel so mixed up
I need some direction
I'm trying to figure out
all of my lessons
in all of this drama
and all of this sadness
before I give up
and am swallowed by madness

I know no other way to live than in love.

I know no other way to feel than with passion.

I know no other way to give than unconditionally.

I know no other way to see than with understanding.

I know no other way to speak than in honesty.

I know no other way to think than mindfully.

I know no other way to move than with grace.

I know no other way to learn than through embracing.

I have no other way to listen than with compassion.

I have no other way to lust than loyally.

I know no other way to love than endlessly.

I know no other way to touch than tenderly.

let's clean the slate
we'll sleep in late
& learn how to appreciate
every inch of our skin
every moment we're in
we'll teach each other how to sin.
we stayed in together
despite nice weather
& by the night,
our bodies were tethered.

i'm so lucky that you are alive
& laying by my side
if there's one thing that i hope
it's that you'll always be near by.

your eyes, made to see the depths of me.
your ears, made to hear the thoughts i keep.
your hands, made to fit my dainty mold.
your lips, made to ******* sweetened soul.

black cannot show without white
wrong cannot live without right
dark cannot come without light
love cannot live without pain
loss cannot come without gain
sun cannot shine without rain

yang would be lost without yin
for everything bad has good within

I want to be free,
like a bird in a tree,
just free to be me,
so infinitely.

I want to fly,
with no worries or ties,
just me & the sky,
so high, so alive.

i want you
all of you
right now
& for the rest of our days
i want you in so many ways

when i'm with you
life is but a dream
i live for the moments i share with you
to bask in your love,
and bathe you in mine

sometimes i will get real quiet,
and just let myself be.
i'll feel & observe,
the changing & exchanging of energies,
around & within me.

sometimes i am left speechless & in awe,
at the infinite potential & divine beauty,
in everyone & everything.
i just want to be still & enjoy it.

take it in.
embrace it.
breathe,
& just be.

if your heart is hurting
give it to me
and i will carry it
with hands of love
and tenderness
until it is no longer sore

if your soul is lost
then let me find it
i will illuminate it
with my love
and the courage i have
to unceasingly give it

if your feet are tired
from running
rest here with me
and i will soothe you
with my love
and gentle kisses

if your mind is gone
from thinking
then let me fill it
with warm thoughts
and poetry
about the effects
of your ever-changing beauty

i will reach into the darkness
and pull you out
i'll make a home in your heart
and chase your demons out
i will sing you love songs
louder then the voices in your head
and you'll forget what it feels like
to wish you were dead