The crisp, nippy air and tired, grey clouds embrace me and I don't want them to let go.

A cotton sweatshirt, denim jeans, and skate shoes can only keep me so warm and safe. Then I'm vulnerable. I become transparent. It's so liberating to be honest, but it feels even better to share this. And that is something I usually don't.

But if it's with her, what do I really need anyway? Confidence, approval, guidance, renewal? Chance said 'there ain't nothin' better than fallin' in love,' so now it makes total sense why it's my favorite drug.

My heart yearns for a love that can not die,
for a love that burns so bright even the sun fills with envy.
My heart waits for its other half,
but it seems as useless as dropping a rose petal down the Grand Canyon
and waiting for the echo..

Your heart yearns for a love that can not die,
for a love that burns so bright even the sun fills with envy.
Your heart waits for compassion,
but you're getting tired of picking up the crumbs thrown from the one who's supposed to care..

My heart wonders what it would be like to feel your touch,
to know the warmth your heart could offer.
My heart cowers though,
because who wouldn't be afraid of jumping off a building with no parachute?

Your heart longs to feel my breath on your neck,
to feel your sadness escape only leaving behind my fingers tracing your every curve.
Your heart cowers though,
because who wouldn't be afraid of falling, when there is no one to catch them?

my insides are twisting and turning
because you are the humming in my veins and
the light in my dark and the gold in my silver world.
your eyes, full of the tumbling blue waves
of the ocean that i've not yet explored.
two synchronized swimmers balancing life
two polar opposites in perfect peace.
we know there is beauty because there is ugly
and we know there is good because there is evil
being and not being
having and not having
we create each other.
difficult and easy
long, short
high, low
they define each other.
and you define me.

Five years we've been together
And everything has been great
We've shared our deep dark secrets
And stayed up talking late

I know what you are thinking
With just the slightest glance
And with every passing minute
I know we didn't meet by chance

From the moment that I met you
I felt a connection to your soul
And with every single "I-love-you"
I've felt my heart becoming whole

Whenever I am with you
It's like my heart is set aflame
And I feel it skip a beat or two
At the mention of your name

I can't imagine spending life
Without you by my side
And if you got down on one knee
I'd happily be your bride

More than anything in this life
I want to spend my days with you
Building our lives and future
And knowing our love is true

You are the one I want
My only love is you...
*But I know you don't really love me
You only think you do.

Its starting again
I can feel it wrapping to claws around me
Squeezing until I can't breathe
As oxygen escapes my lungs
I feel the world going dark around me
I can't move
I can't speak
I.Can't. Breathe.
Im falling into a pit of darkness
And no one can help
Because no one even knows
But it is happening again
And I fear that this time
This time when I hit the bottom
I won't be able to climb back out
This time,
The darkness will consume me.