still a kid
with one more year to go
to be considered almost an adult
by all the pretentious human beings
who acts as if they know what's better
for me who is
still a kid

I know I sound like a poser
a third-rate actor
I've been known to be a liar
but attention isn't what I desire
always in situations that are dire
everyday I feel like I've been set on fire

"oh can you tell, I haven't slept very well
since the last time that we spoke"

mayday parade-stay

"if I ever see you on the street,
I'll pretend that I didn't see
and turn my face
no use in small talk anyway"

David choi-wont even start

songs that remind me
that I'm still wrecked and broken
since that day where it all ended.
those happy times I wish to relive.
those memories I want to cherish.

I need to rest and I've never given myself one ever.
if not temporarily, let me rest indefinitely.

giving it all never works out
turning around for a second
and someone can just easily
sweep her off her feet

coming out of my shell
and all of the perseverance
I tried being there but
it's wasted because I'm irrelevant

trying to be happy
it never works out
because reality wants you to suffer
and makes you wish you're not alive

I give up on reality
society and it's hypocrisy
using your life as a thread
to control you as their puppet

love
was one thing
that I never seem to get

hoping that one day
when it's here
it's not something i'll regret

is death the greater good
where there would be no suffering?
is death the solution
to the myriad of problems you are having?
is death the better place
the place where I can finally get a rest?

anxiety
is crushing me
into tiny million pieces
making me feel not needed

unwanted

as I open my eyes
new problems passing
with no hope for a solution
wishing here for me to die

as I close my eyes
no problems passing
nothing else to hope for
I might have already died

i've had enough of this
stupid
meaningless
life

for once I have no regret
choosing death
over being
alive

i recently realised
that i've always been weak
weak-hearted
weak-minded
weak-kneed

wounds so deep
no amount of stitching can fix it
wounds so deep
i doubt it'll heal
wounds so deep
hoping someone'll patch me up