In this hand I hold a gun
In the other hold my brain
Now I'm about to go ******* insane
As I drown in a reflexing pool only to come out the ******* same
Only difference is I'm in a new world where I'm considered an outcast
All because I chose my brain over a gun
Because I rather give a life then take it
Yes, apparently now I'm a lame
This truly is a new age
One where a baby knows the scent of **** before he can speak his own momma's name
It's a wonder how anybody can be sane
Because how can anyone stay sane with that knocking sound in their brain
Yelling at them constantly this is wrong, this is wrong, this is wrong over and over and over again
So now I'm picking up the gun
Looking at the engravings oh look that's my name
This bullet is for me so watch me blow out my brains
I'm sorry I couldn't do it, the ******* overcame
Haha...It truly is resilient, the true master of this game
I guess this is the story of all the brains

Into the void I go
Nothing but darkness from head to toe
I'm cold...
I hear a whisper in the distance
It tells me to just let it go
So I do...
I see a light
So I smile thinking it's my way out
But I was wrong...
It was just another void colder than the one before
So into the void I go
With no hope
With no soul**
I tried to find myself
in places that didn't exist...
My soul and heart are filled with void
I tried to find the missing piece
But I only ended up losing more
I just wanna find happiness
Within myself...
Always wandering
If there's a way out of this
....Getting high
Trying to fill this void
Realizing there's no way out
...living in hell on earth

I can't feel my face anymore
It's as if my whole world has gone numb
My wings have been snapped clean off
Now I'm living off the scraps like some type of wild animal
I can't breathe...
Feels like I'm being suffocated by the seven seas
But in actuality it's just the pain getting the best of me
As I crawl attempting to reach sanctuary
But everytime it seems like I'm getting closer to the light
I can feel the darkness creeping up my spine and yanking me back into the heart of the night
It then caress me like a momma to her new born baby
Whispering in my ears there is no escaping
I'm stranded here
And there is no one coming to rescue me
I mean why would they...
I'm in this mess because of those dimwits
Always kicking me and punching me
Making me feel like I'm nothing more then an old piece of chewed up gum stuck to the bottom of your shoes
Can't blame them though,
Because that's what I am
A nuisance, an inconvenience to society
So instead of fighting it let me embrace it
Now I'm dead trapped in a unmarked wooden box

Smiling...

We fought this war together
Standing side by side through thick and thin
Surviving this prison as a team and family
Saving one another from the hell that existed in our lives
But now... That time has to come to an end
Now we walk our own paths
Experience our own adventures
Live our own lives
It is hard to believe that we are all going our separate ways now
That we are actually saying farewell after these long years
When you think about it's actually kind of sad
Because though we hate to admit it,
We will miss each other
But at the end of the day we all can just say one thing
Class of 2016...
***** WE MADE IT

I ain't royalty
But I would hope I ain't got to be .
Because I just want to write some poetry
Telling a story about this underrated loyalty
Because it seems we put our trust in the wrong people and now we're suffering
Unable to walk down the streets without seeing these guns pointing
Engraved with these secret messages that just happen to be not so secretive
Because we all know that these engraving are just names
The golden ticket to the end of your story
Cue the watering
Because now there are loved ones crying
Unable to comprehend what is happening
Asking what did he/she do to deserve this
When in actuality the answer is simple they did nothing
They just fell victim to humanity stupidity
Its greed and thirst for violence is starting to get the best of us
And we just turn a blind eye because we don't want to be next
I mean death, the afterlife, are we truly prepared to face what comes after this
The answer is no because we are weak minded beings who are afraid of everything
So we make these fancy machinery to protect us from our own buffoonery
And that is just how it is
The real truth of our end

Am I suppose to cry
Feel sad because you're not by my side
Make a big scene letting the world know I miss thee
Drowning myself in the vast pitt of despair as I wonder...
Wonder will I ever see you again
Syncing with the rain that pours down upon my head
As I look down into the reflecting pool only to see the past that once was
Viewing it as if it was only a dream
Still reaching out to grab your hand only to have disappear before feeling your warmth surge through me
So you tell me,
Am I suppose to cry
Because I can't feel anything outside of the pain that sings on the inside

Let's be real
My poetry isn't what it use to be
I use to write these poetic lines that made you nod your head to the beat
Made you rise from your seat and do a 360 just to hear me speak
But now if that is what you seek
I'm sorry to disappoint but all you will see is me struggling
Living the recession to the fullest
Unable to connect the dots that float right in front of me
Yes, this is one of those stories
About how one of the greats have fallen from the heavens he once resided
The only difference is I was never a great
I'm just a simple minded being who seeks peace for society's sake
But that's kind of hard when society gets off on war
Creating these war torn third world countries who can't even breathe the air they live off on
Then again I'm only 18 so who am I to call out society and its perfect system that has been in play for centuries
So let me just close my mouth now and send you on your marry little way
But before I go there is just one last thing I would like to say

Act now before it is too late.