I wonder if you are watching me as intently as I’m watching you.
Your hands fidgeting.
I fight not to stop them
with mine.
We can hardly match eyes,
worried that it might stir too much.
Worried that we might ruin what we have with something more.

you are as pretty as a star,
but unfortunately,
just like that celestial body,
you’re also a million miles away.

I wish I could hold your body up against mine.
For longer than 5 seconds.
Long enough that I could breathe you in.
That I could feel your body react to mine.

I wish I could stare into your eyes and not have us look away.
I wish so many other things but most wishes don’t come true.

that there are so many people who love each other but are too afraid to say something or make a move
that all that potential energy goes to waste
when it could become something much more

it’s becoming overwhelmingly clear that it’s all in my head
I’ve always had an active imagination and often dream of feelings that do not exist

this thing between us reminds me of silence
once something is said, it’ll no longer exist

I’m the sun that brings warmth
That makes you feel alive

But I feel nothing from that

I want to be a black hole
Unknown, unpredictable
To matter