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maria Feb 8
felt like a high school daydream
you pointed out constellations,
but the wind hurt my face and I just wanted to wrap myself in you
On the swings, I asked you to push me
claiming I wanted help building momentum
but it was an excuse to be touched by you
I am shameless
I am sad
my mind is beautiful and soft and hopes that you feel as anxious and dizzy around me as I do around you.
maria Jan 26
how long until I find another that will crack  me right open?
maria Jan 17
I vibrate at a different frequency
It lingers for hours after
I’m dizzy with want
Jan 17 · 25
ten months
maria Jan 17
of not being anything more
of you making me full body laugh
of me suppressing all the things I want to say
of me fighting what my body wants to do
Dec 2020 · 32
I cannot understand
maria Dec 2020
I cannot understand why two halves make a whole. Yet, you and I don’t.

I cannot understand my cat wants kisses immediately after breaking my skin.

I cannot understand why I’m here and not falling down a hill.

I cannot understand why I have all the ingredients to make happiness yet it evades me.
Nov 2020 · 44
I feel you slipping away
maria Nov 2020
but I remind myself
You’re not mine
Never was
What’s really slipping away
Is the possibility of us
Nov 2020 · 43
Surely you must know
maria Nov 2020
that I love you?
I know it’s not practical or fair.
That our love could never break the surface.
That it’s roots be doomed to grow underground.
Hidden.
Nov 2020 · 37
Untitled
maria Nov 2020
the words that wish to come out of my mouth
are slowly being held back by logic
my body aches wanting your kiss
it aches to feel the warmth of your hand
maria Nov 2020
I see the world with such admiration and wonder. Imagine if I could save just a fraction of that love for myself?
Nov 2020 · 24
Dizzy
maria Nov 2020
I find myself not wanting to say goodbye.
Looking for ways to stay longer.
I can’t remember the last time I felt something just from fingers briefly touching.
I think I’d pass out if we shared anything more.
maria Oct 2020
I can tell from personal experience
that type of love isn’t sustainable.
you can’t get lost in someone that deeply and still keep yourself.
Oct 2020 · 419
I wonder
maria Oct 2020
What was the last thing I said to you before we went back to being strangers?
Oct 2020 · 35
sexy haiku
maria Oct 2020
your fingers, my mouth
I press my *** against you
an invitation
Do I write haikus while having *** now? Maybe.
Oct 2020 · 38
i miss you
maria Oct 2020
the minute i leave you
Aug 2020 · 329
it’s strange
maria Aug 2020
to find what you weren’t even looking for.
I wonder if it’s rare, what we have.
no missed beats.
just a mutual agreement to leave things unsaid.
Aug 2020 · 510
love isn’t like lightning
maria Aug 2020
it’s not flashy and loud
it comes in like thunder
unexpected
but when it arrives
it can’t be ignored
maria Aug 2020
0 days since my feelings went away.
Jul 2020 · 48
erased
maria Jul 2020
deleted implies that my words to you still exist somewhere.
found hidden between the white lies and rough drafts.
but to say that I’m erased from your thoughts,
that means persistent friction was applied to remove me.
that my feelings for you are gone.
Jul 2020 · 35
I would
maria Jul 2020
I would write you handwritten love letters
Sing to you endless songs
Have your head rest on my chest
Wrap my legs around yours

Let you kiss my forehead
Move a strand of hair behind my ear
Kiss you soft
Then hard
Then soft again
Jul 2020 · 41
chasing a feeling
maria Jul 2020
when I’m filled by you,
I feel significantly less empty.
when I lay with you,
I feel significantly less alone.
Jul 2020 · 49
.
maria Jul 2020
.
You’re always telling me life is sadness
the world is hard
we are bound to suffer.

I’d like to hold and kiss you
Make it slightly better
Prove you wrong.
Jul 2020 · 33
Church
maria Jul 2020
I used to kneel in church,
Bowed my head in reverence.
I can’t convince myself to believe anymore.
I wish I could.
I wonder if I’m searching for meaning elsewhere.
Maybe in myself.
I want others to kneel with me,
Bow their heads in reverence.
Jul 2020 · 168
seen
maria Jul 2020
we look at each other like we are just about to kiss.
we look at each other like we see ourselves.
Jul 2020 · 51
...
maria Jul 2020
...
I see two hummingbirds
Sweetly dancing together in the air
I wonder if they know what sadness is
That their joy is temporary
Jul 2020 · 59
keep at arms length
maria Jul 2020
don’t respond too soon
don’t dig deeper
don’t let yourself feel anything more
Jul 2020 · 59
tell me you feel it too
maria Jul 2020
this is different
it is special
it is complicated
it’s not all in my head
maria Jul 2020
I’m just aware it won’t happen now
Jul 2020 · 54
stark contrast
maria Jul 2020
from feeling so much it felt like I’d burst
to feeling almost nothing at all
Jun 2020 · 52
overflow
maria Jun 2020
It has been building up
I knew it would have to come out eventually
But I said too much and I see that now.
that feel when you are married and you tell you husband you have a crush on your friend and then you tell your crush that you told your husband that you have a crush on them and you just want to disappear forever now cause everything is ruined.
Jun 2020 · 33
I wonder
maria Jun 2020
If your pupils dilate when you see me.
If your palms get sweaty, your heart race increases.
Your smile breaks me right open.
I can’t stop staring at your mouth,
I can’t stop imagining your arms around me.
Jun 2020 · 29
...
maria Jun 2020
...
The night is quiet and I just want you to know,
I love you
Without expectations or hopes
Just that I love you
Jun 2020 · 51
Untitled
maria Jun 2020
it hurts me to see you in pain
i want to comfort you
softly and inappropriately
Jun 2020 · 54
Untitled
maria Jun 2020
You told me that you wish that you felt something for anything or anyone.
I wish you’d feel everything for me.
Jun 2020 · 477
haiku 2
maria Jun 2020
do you think of me?
in your wet dreams while you sleep?
you appear in mine.
maria Jun 2020
and I’d rather be on the tip of yours.
Jun 2020 · 51
anxiety
maria Jun 2020
it feels like I’m stuck in fast forward
like I can’t breathe
like everything is brighter
and louder
I can’t focus
I can’t imagine a time I don’t feel this way
I don’t feel like me
Jun 2020 · 151
ephemera
maria Jun 2020
noun
“things that exist or are used or enjoyed for only a short time”

or in other words,

me.
Jun 2020 · 36
this isn't love
maria Jun 2020
it's just my body releasing too much dopamine
I can't sleep after seeing you
I can't think straight
but love isn't one sided
or it shouldn't be
it's an active choice
and this doesn't feel like that
it feels like losing control
maria Jun 2020
you live there now
taken up real estate
built a home there
welcome
maria Jun 2020
Thinking someday I will cease to exist
A part of me wants to live forever
In the cloud
In your synapses
In your arms
Jun 2020 · 63
love or lust?
maria Jun 2020
You have me off-kilter
I can’t wait to see you
I long to be alone with you
I know I’m playing with fire
I want to burn
Jun 2020 · 68
traverse
maria Jun 2020
an ocean exists between us
vast, deep and full of life
dangerous, thrilling and beautiful
am I willing to risk it all to cross it?
Jun 2020 · 49
Hands
maria Jun 2020
I wonder if you are watching me as intently as I’m watching you.
Your hands fidgeting.
I fight not to stop them
with mine.
We can hardly match eyes,
worried that it might stir too much.
Worried that we might ruin what we have with something more.
Jun 2020 · 41
Untouchable
maria Jun 2020
I wish I could hold your body up against mine.
For longer than 5 seconds.
Long enough that I could breathe you in.
That I could feel your body react to mine.

I wish I could stare into your eyes and not have us look away.
I wish so many other things but most wishes don’t come true.
Jun 2020 · 35
it’s funny and sad
maria Jun 2020
that there are so many people who love each other but are too afraid to say something or make a move
that all that potential energy goes to waste
when it could become something much more
May 2020 · 74
slowly but surely
maria May 2020
it’s becoming overwhelmingly clear that it’s all in my head
I’ve always had an active imagination and often dream of feelings that do not exist
May 2020 · 69
...
maria May 2020
...
this thing between us reminds me of silence
once something is said, it’ll no longer exist
maria May 2020
I’m the sun that brings warmth
That makes you feel alive

But I feel nothing from that

I want to be a black hole
Unknown, unpredictable
To matter
May 2020 · 403
.
maria May 2020
.
falling for you
is like wishing for rain on a sunny day
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