I always thought this world was all we had but the more I grow and learn, I realize it's the one thing we don't have.

My whole life I've been possessive with the people and things that I love,
So I guess it wasn't a surprise when I wasn't any different with you

But for some reason I thought it would be different with you,
Maybe because you made me believe that I could never want you as much as you wanted me

Because of that in my mind I never thought for a second you'd be the one to pack up and leave,
But you did.

"Open up to me" they say
Everyone wants me to open my thoughts to them
To share what's going on
"Don't you trust me?" They ask
But it's not like I don't want to talk to you
It's not like I don't trust you 
It's that I can't put into words how I've been feeling lately
Something inside me is breaking slowly and I wish it would hurry up so I can move on with my life
There's this constant pain in my heart that spreads throughout my entire body
I often wonder if I should see a doctor about it
But then I remember when the pain began;the day you left 
And there's no cure for heartache
This is all so familiar
And I can't understand why I keep letting it happen to me
People keep saying they miss the old me
That they don't trust me anymore
I dreamt last night that I had rebuilt all of the bridges I had accidentally burnt while trying to regain myself
But during this I realized that I like it better when we don't talk
Fewer relationships mean less ways to get hurt
And less sympathetic faces