'willnot' poems - Hello Poetry

Kimberly Eyers Nov 2014

Divergence
Leads to-
Convergence.
James Funke
Told me
I was going to hate him.
I don’t hate you, long arms.
After I read those poems of yours
I cannot- willnot
Believe you wrote them
To drive me away.
Did you really write them?

#honesty #fishbowl #funke

robin Jun 2014

37.802, -122.261; (RE)LAPSE IN JUDGEMENT

robin Jun 2014

37.802, -122.261; (RE)LAPSE IN JUDGEMENT

IM SORRY IM ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT HOW SICK I AM ITS JUST I KEEP HOPING YOU'LL GIVE ME A PILL TO MAKE IT STOP OR AT LEAST DIAGNOSE ME TELL ME EXACTLY WHATS WRONG INSTEAD OF IT BEING THIS ******* MALAISE ALWAYS IN MY ARMS LIKE A CHILD I NEVER WANTED BUT WAS TOO KIND TO LEAVE

I PROMISE IM NOT VOMITING ON PURPOSE I HAVENT BEEN THAT WAY IN YEARS AND NOW WHEN I STICK MY FINGER DOWN MY THROAT TRYING TO PURGE THE POISON IN MY BELLY ALL I DO IS DRY HEAVE AND WEAR MY THROAT RAW AND I END WITH A POUNDING HEADACHE AND A DROOLING MOUTH

THIS IS NOT HOW I WANTED YOU TO SEE ME DISGUSTING AND USED DRY I WANTED TO BE YOUR SHINING GODDESS YOUR ICON SOMEONE YOU COULD LOOK UP TO SOMEONE YOU COULD STRIVE TO BE BUT PLEASE DONT END UP LIKE ME

SORRY FOR HOLDING YOU TOO TIGHT IM JUST TRYING TO PULL YOU THROUGH MY ******* SKIN I DIDNT MEAN TO LEAVE THOSE MARKS I DIDNT MEAN TO BRUISE YOU WITH THE PATTERN OF MY FINGERPRINTS BUT NOW THAT IT'S THERE I CANT SAY I REGRET IT YOU CAN REMEMBER ME AS THE GIRL WHO ****** YOU UP YOU CAN BLAME ME FOR IT ALL

TELL ME THAT IM WORTH SOMETHING TELL ME THAT DEATH IS A JOKE AND I CAN LIVE WITH YOU FOREVER TELL ME ILL NEVER HAVE TO BE ALONE TELL ME YOULL ALWAYS BE WITH ME SO MINE IS NOT THE ONLY HEARTBEAT IN THE ROOM TELL ME WE CAN SLEEP IN THE SAME ROOM SO WHEN I WAKE IN THE NIGHT SCARED AND SWEATING I CAN HEAR YOU BREATHING AND KNOW IF I DIE THERE WILL BE SOMEONE THERE I WILL NOT DIE ALONE I WILL NOT DIE ALONE I WILLNOT DIE ALONE

IM CODEPENDENT AND SELFISH AND SICK AND I NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME THAT NEITHER OF US HAS DIED AND THIS TRACHEOTOMY IS CRUDE BUT WE'RE BREATHING STILL AND WE CAN STAY IN THE HOSPITAL UNTIL EVERYTHING FEELS RIGHT AGAIN TELL ME THAT GOD EXISTS AND IF WE CANT LIVE FOREVER AT LEAST WE CAN GO TO HEAVEN

IM SO ******* SICK OF LEAVING EVERYONE BEHIND IM SO SICK OF BEING TRANSIENT IM SO SICK OF BEING A PAPERY GHOST LEAVING WHEN THINGS TURN SOLID TELL ME YOU WONT LET ME LEAVE YOU BEHIND TELL ME YOULL STAY WITH ME EVEN WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES AND DONT SPEAK FOR DAYS IM SO SORRY IM SO SORRY I WANTED TO BE A GODDESS BUT IM JUST A ******* SLUG AND IM SO AFRAID YOULL LET ME LEAVE

but screaming never solved anything

#death #ghost #selfish #sick #goddess

anu Aug 2015

Want to be deaf and dump...

anu Aug 2015

Want to be deaf and dump...

Wish to be a deaf and dump often
Were I can’t hear hurting words from my loving hearts
Were I willnot wish to talk to my loving hearts
Who hates me and hurts me often..

Out of deep pain. I love to talk and share but find none to hear and respond me…Hate myself..

Cristina Michelle Dexeus May 2012

Scream

Cristina Michelle Dexeus May 2012

Scream

da da da daaaaaa...da da da daaaaaaa
the wedding march screams
I am getting married*
not you
varied dreams come true today
the bride in white
the groom says goodbye
to cherished lonely
the stain-glassed windows
shade the scene in vibrant
all is happy

but I am in a box
slowly crushing crushing crushing
in in in
I cannot escape this moment
this moment of terror screams
will this ever be for me
I am stupid stupid stupid
because the tears cannot (willnot) relent
sobs are stuck but strain
eyes glances stares
stupid stupid stupid me

the bride in white mocks
you will never
the groom says goodbye to lonely nights
never feel this
have this
be this

DA DA DA DAAAAA...DA DA DA DAAAAA
the wedding march screams

Sam Stone Grenier Feb 2015

english in the modern factory:

Sam Stone Grenier Feb 2015

english in the modern factory:

st
    ru
        ct
            ur
                 e
structure in 5 paragraphs(5 perfect paragraphs)
you see, it's
l
  e
    t
      t
        e
           r
             s
on a conveyor belt
letters organized organized organized
into words organized organized organized
into paragraphs organized organized organized
into papers(into perfection)
assembled into Perfection,
                        is it human?
NO!
                    you *******
it's not.
humans cannot
              willnot
be anything close to                   perfection
all this organizing is only            dehumanizing
if it leads to something that one cannot achieve
if one says something is ABSOLUTELY PERFECT
2 billion others will say
          f*ck you
               you're wrong
and you probably are
       either way
               majority rules
everything
               is
               a true imperfection
for there is always a time when the conveyor belt bre aks

CLEVERN Jul 2018

SWEAR TO NEVER LET GO

CLEVERN Jul 2018

SWEAR TO NEVER LET GO

the palm of mine you hold
swear to never let go
for adeep pit i shall fall in
apit with no stears
and forever i will be gone in your life

swear that the judges shall not separate us
but let he who takes life separate us on the cross roads
promise that the tree of our affection willnot be cut down by ahomo spiens
please swear

for no human knows what the future holds
dont promise abright future
but promise ahappy now
please swear to never let go
BY CLEVER.N

CLStewart 7d

Bye Bye False Revelers

CLStewart 7d

Bye Bye False Revelers

I've slept way to less because of your false tales. My livelihood is forever threatened. I cannot forgive, I will never forget!
Soon I will again breach those mountains and lay dormant however this time I've devised your demise. The 4 of you will never again smell the fresh air only the dirt as it covers your choking breath.
I've longed for this moment, very soon all of you willnot even be a memory. Your blood will boil. Your graves will be desecrated and your offspring tarnished. You are Death.

— The End —