Our eternity has come to an end.
Yesterday’s Love is now but a distant dream,
drifting away at the speed of death
with no agent of regret to slow it down..

My heart has sat within the field of our love, patiently waiting for you to return to the center of your heart and remember the pathless path that leads to this field.

Spring came, I laughed with orchids, prayed with trees that bow their branches before the setting sun, and learned the song of the bees that sing to the flowers within this field. But you, mylove, were nowhere to be found..

Summer came, I witnessed the innocence and harmony of nature, I watched the rays of the radiant sun make love to our fertile earth and bloom a garden in the hues of her emerald aura. But you, mylove, were nowhere to be found..

Autumn came, the butterflies told me stories of their harvest and their resurrection through death. I helped the Earth paint the leaves of the walking trees in orange, brown and red, and I learned the faith of a withering rose dancing in the light of the sun. But you, mylove, were nowhere to be found..

Winter has come, and you are nowhere to be found, mylove. The earth of my body is not made to withstand the absence of the sun. Shelter I must seek or I will die in this field, cold and alone. It seems I am doomed to hold you, only in my memories of you.

Grateful I am still! For in the haven of my memories my heart will find solace, as death carries me to a world where Love is found.

goodbye ..

Her Serene and complete soul blossomed like a new born flower,so I want to be her lover

a whisper—
it creeps through my extremities,
& it persists:
even when my fatherforgivemeforIhavesinned is clutched nearby,
like a slowburningcinder
that chisels at the arches of my feet,
& simmers in my lockedup[treasure]chest,
it tells me:
“iwonderwhenyouwilljustgivein,mylove,
giveintotheembersandbu­rstintoflames.”
[& these wrists, they ache,
with a promise they once held for me—
justopenthechestandyouwillbesetfree]
—

& I hate to be the bearerofbadnews but,
you are a part of it, as well,
my l.ong o.verdue v.icissitudinous e.scape,
& in your lapse of silence,
you whisper, too.
“iwonderwhenyouwilljustgivein,myfriend,
giveintotheembersof­yourheartache
andsquelchouttheselickingflames.”
—

& as the forest is left to its smolders
& as the smoke begins to clear,
I lie awake in
the lulling hours of the morning,
inspecting the charring on my heartstrings
& the scorched remnants of my exhausted energies,
waiting for healing to awaken
among the first few raindropsofremembers & sprigsofspring,
[itrustyou,itrustyou,itrustyou]
only to be engulfed in the rhythm of your illumination again,
for my leaves are dry
& the winds are strong,
& the hypnosis of your glow is too seductive to disregard.

touch me  hold me.
in moon lite night.
a sweet love of night.
a sweet of love the dawn.
a  sweet love of spring time song.
in month of june.
so touch me hold me.
in arms tonight.
in the moonlite night
so dance with me mylove
in moonlite night.
sweet love of the night.
sweet of the dawn.
i love you yes it true.
my sweet love of spring time song.
in month of june.
dance with me my love
in the moonlite night.
hold me in your heart.
my sweet love of the night.
as tonight tonight.
wish upon the stars.
an hold my love in my arms.
so  touch me hold me.
in the moonlite night.
my sweet love of the night.
sweet love of the dawn.
sweet love of spring time song
in month  of  june .
i  love my love.
dance with my love  in moon lite .
an hold me in your heart .
in sweet love of the night.
i love you my love.

Were I now, like you in heaven,

In estranging me, you escape in agony

To the deepest bottom of a cavern,

Wheresoever you are, with you,

Mylove shall take a plunge too.

Since I hardly find a way, let us hug and part

I can’t let you have more of me, no more…

I’m done, ‘m glad with all my heart

Oh such easily, I can free, free me of all dirt.

At the last gasp of love’s latest breath,

Trust, ashamed, kneeling by its bed of death,

Friendly lies being brought into,

Tear drops proving, they love the lashes too.

I woke up in a pool of sweat,

‘Nightmare!’; ‘Reality’, for that to happen,

Do you think I will ever let?

And hey, do you think, you play it fair?

You had myheart, thrice to tear!

I wonder what eyes, love put in my head,

They can image nothing beyond you,

Only if I knew where my judgement fled…

I swear, I would have never let go of you.

Oh I remember it was the tears,

That hid the marvel in you,

Leaving me with destiny and fears.

I don’t fear a loss now,

Untrue love, Untrue love, Untrue love;

Your mind is light, soon lost for new love,

I know such evilness doesn’t brew in you!

I was the one who leapt, across the night

You were right there, even when I wept.

I won’t let unease topple me,

With you not near; Have had enough

Of toiling, with you sarcastic afar!

ocean apart of the hearts
in the land of the rising
sun.
a angel capture my heart
she is treasure of  all
the land.
she the butterfly of
the spring water of
life.
as then the song of
magic.
in the early morning
spring.
as then i travel these
road in her land.
to find this beautiful
lotus flower of my heart.
what is love but is  love with
her arms.
i yell out loud from
highest mountain top
i'am here my love
i'am here mylove
i'am ocean apart my sweet
love from heart my love.
you are twilight of the spring
an the song my heart.
you the magic of my  days
and the magic of night.
hear my words my love
i love you for you
      my love
       because
you are my heart
that bring  endless joy  to my
life.you are laughter
          in my life
where their is sadness.
you bring joy in my life
so let walk this  road in life
   together as  one.
an build rainbow of  joy in are life
as travel these road in life
     i love you my love

As my love for you seeps away,
As I lie here with nothing to say,
And all this time,it fly's by,
My heart grows smaller,and starts to die,
The vision of you,it starts to loose its touch,
My heart is big for you,
now not so much,I'm loosing love,gaining nothing,
I thought mylove for you,was acually something,
Feeling sorrow, but I cant admit it,
Here in solitude,thinking about it,
I'm not absorbing hate,
But I'm starting to believe somthing called fate.
Even though I just said all this stuff,
Im going to still love you,
but just not as such.
Bad things can happen to great friends,
for a moment their I felt as if my soul had to decend.
Now I'm feeling the letting off of sympathy,
and my soul coming to harmony,
but I still dont know why you were starting to feel,far from me.
Now as I open my eyes,
I see that nothing is intentional,
and how love can seem so non-fictional.
Love really gets to some people,
But to me it seems 2 dimensional,
Like ones real and the other is unbelieviable,
Love can control what we have,
believe it or not its decieviable.
But as I stumble on this path,
I soon began to relize that its always pleadable.
A scar on the heart, a **** on love,
And how it can cross ones heart,
And leave a cruel and happy story of true art,
From people of true parts,
That soon come together,
In the mixed emotions of bad weather.

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        byYourSide=true;
        myLove++;
        }

We loved so much ,and got so far ,then we missed ,and became devastated Lost in your gaze,I hope to Be in you'r arms ,Come wipe away my tears ,and all my fears!Hold me Right where I belong,in your Love,plays my song once there was a man YOU !I fell inlove'r ,,You are my shinning star,where ever you ,ARE FAR ,I Love you,your my only man,to be with forever mylove, always...

What have i done
Giving mylove away
For a trail never promised to stay
A heart full of love
Filling with sorrow
I should of thought twice
I am tired of leading with my heart
When it comes to love i am weak
My weakness is i love harder
Harder than i ever thought
Its pure to my wants
I chase what i want
Its him who i want .
Stopp the recklessnes ..your weakness
Weakness spoke upon me and let him take it.
He took it and ran with it
Never looking back
Chasing him was an empty virtue
O was so blind with masked lovely haze
I didnt seeo..i wanted to feel nothing but him
Hypnotized by what ..i had no meaning to
This love had no meaning
Its takes two to make it historic
I left in your hands as if i cant conquer on my own.
Trial mistaken.

All theses thoughts in my head,theses racing thoughts that wont give me a min of peace.
The voices always telling me im worthless,ugly,trash,a lying ***** that'll never amount to anything or every have anything out of life if i.
Thoses same voices telling me im better off dead everyone would be better if i wasnt in existence anymore,then i look at my family and wish every day to be normal for them.
Normal is all ive wanted my whole life instead of crazy **** going on and constantly around me that makes me look bad and that im ******* every one in the world.

Is it really that hard for him to love me and want me for the rest of ourlives.
Will he every forgive me for the five mistakes i made when we were first brought together and that i hid it from him cause i feared losing my eternal love im sorry mylove for lying so long but even now i show you proof and tell you exactly whats on my mind and never lie to you again.