October 2013
for Maria and Logan...
you need two hands, one foot.
count my years.
each finger, worth a decade.
each toe, well, a century...
birthdays.
point of inflection,
point of opportunity,
presents itself,
to rewrite history.
a second coat of paint,
gift-wrapped in weak excuses.
how I lied, how I ain't,
grimm-fated fairy tales
somebody created.
invisible suits of gold-cloth
worn to my party of
past rewrit and
future foretold.
one single thought,
memory,
seizes my heart,
as I fall to my knees.
cracks my temperate ease,
renders open the
woof and weave
of recycled deceptions,
causing all to be revealed
and ask,
what if the poetry ceases?
you know prostrate?
you taste grief?
have you not but
one pain,
one act,
one deed,
one memorization,
act of cowardice,
act of desertion,
mistake maden, taken,
for which
forgiveness
can never
be given,
be taken,
attained?
do, does, did.
let me then
win the birthday lottery,
let floods of relief from
daily chores, not drown me,
chauffeurs to drive,
masseurs to massage,
cooks to cook,
les delicious treats,
keep theologians, logicians
on retainer, if need
explanations.
none know, can provide,
still and yet, a
priestly sacred chord,
grants relief,
absolution,
song of hallelujah
the ache of
perpetuity worry,
that ancient pain,
grows fresher daily,
the loss of one,
of my body,
my primal knot
unreasonable,
everything should be
permitted to be untied,
on my birthday, no?
this day, these days
breathe through words,
molecules of vowels,
stem cells of consonants,
the fabric, the tissues of life,
veins are a dictionary
of corpuscles,
red blood cells are
nouns of nutrients.
this day, these days,
the infection of my soul
is tempered, kept at bay,
tamped down from the
full flowering
of white blood cells
of rhyme, verse.
what if the poetry ceases?
Though the bones creak,
the body they carry. resurrect
for morning, afternoon
and evening prayers.
thrice daily poetry I recite,
roses red, violets blue,
my marrow transfused.
though my prayers refused,
the poetry act immolates
the fringes of my disease,
for which the common cure
is not currently invented....
what if the poetry ceases?
but be assured, told
scientists hard at work,
on the
forgive n' forget drug.
meantime,
take a bubble bath in
rosemary and mint
trap some words,
tap some words into
your cell phone bone,
the poetry heat that
provides aspirin relief.
through this poem,
on one day annual,
I am relieved, relived
the muse is feted, sated,
gone for few moments
concerns, worries of
exposure today,
agnostic's foxhole of hell
is dis-remembered,
the gloss returns,
the faux dispatched,
ain't birthdays grand?
what if the poetry ceases?
what rhymes with
Sorrow?
mmmmm,
could it be
Morrow?
bath drains, rosemary and mint
odors dismissed, the Argentine disparu,
the Spanish Medievalists,
the Neo-Raphaelites,
all gone,
didn't they have birthdays too?
didn't know
the Renaissance come
and go,
and nobody
tole ya?
please recall t'is the day
after my sweet city recorded my
naissance in the
Hospital of the Flowers
on Fifth Avenue.
the 'crats put the datum
in the bureau with the
night creams and
the statistics
as follows:
on this day + a few,
six or twenty decades ago +
a few centuries,
a question was born,
and an ache that is
sometimes relieved,
by a poem song.
though do not celebrate,
t'is a day to calibrate,
review, edit, tinker,
rewrite, often a stinker.
always one thought recycles:
what if the poetry ceases?
(how will I breathe?)
Notes: my birthday was a few weeks ago. One of a number poems I've written about birthdays. This one was modified, but only slightly for Maria and Logan.