Pitter patter pitter patter
Of each drip drip drop
As it ricochets off my window panes
Or glances by my door

The gurgling and chugging
Ushered from my rooftop
Moving with a purposeful haste
As if a finish line it seeks out
To which it will be graded with a score

Their lanes help subdivide them
Into a mini-highway system
Flowing and gushing through
As the droplets begin to pour
This marvelous eco system
Running with high efficiency
A pedestrian in their Water World
Sauntering, I take my tour

These waterways and fountains
Are the perfect camouflage
With their help I shield my pain
To the world outside my door

With so many falling drops
Hiding from others all my tears
And no need to hold them back
My life has happiness no more
Dewy drops from sky above
And moisture pods from eyelets too
An endless storm of paindrops fall
Forever lost what was before

Without effort, cast your chill
These scattered thoughts - I am confused
A lightning bolt I caught for you
But you had seen it all before

Nothing fancy; nothing new
Like fresh cut grass with morning dew
And so my Paindrops fell for you
But you don't want me anymore

I pass days by as days pass by as if time-frozen my body moves foward but the soul is downward bound. My heart still unfound.

This agony. This pain. This loneliness to hurt me slow..

Keep my head up? Yeah.. I know.. Its what I do best no need to put it to a test

They all say that but do they believe in that? Assaulted by the endurance of a long held lonely nothingness I realize this is my life.

Always shall fall my soul-hued paindrops in rhyme yet still in time my heartrain falls harder so much less visible..

I'm invisible..

I'm so invisible..

A leech of the smile. I preach self-denial. I want to escape from myself as I lose myself from within myself..

A far reach for hope feel like I'm hung by a rope
I knew I'd end up broken inside have been awhile

I prayed for happy but nope..
I prayed for family but have no hope

I live obligated to stay
While I hope for brighter days..

Its one day to many days again and again.. But when will this end after so many years? Its been nothing but tears..

I want to feel again..

Find my soul.
Make me real.