Been awhile since I felt reason to type at 5am.
I've been so quiet this past month. December left me
enough to remember 2018 by. We're not out of winter yet

I feel lighter, a warmth I'd almost forgotten kindles in me.
She said something that struck me.
"Ya there literally is so many layers to me. As cliche as tht sounds... and its like sumtimes just unravelling all at once so can get soooooo confusing.
Or sumtimes i am so focused one idea
I am determined just a complete organised chaos hahaaha"

She speaks with such freedom
and soul that burn brightly
to the sound of techno.

facing a Gemini
not a literal one
my sport washing my life
a dose of nostalgia swallows me
overdoses of sadness, stress, and blindness
relaxation, a blue moon will show its face
my heart. attached to one is now lost
my independence climbing back
constantly getting knocked down
trying to climb the mountain of feels
defeating the monster of confusion
crossing bridge Gemini for a short cut
rarely making it
when I think I accomplish the journey and surprise always knocks me down
just like my swimming
my last lap was always putting me down
wasting all my energy on the first lap.

My head
a volcano that. wants to erupt
but the wine cork stops it
internal explosion occurs and the volcano breaks down

My thoughts
a bottle of shaken champagne
wanting to explode
and spill
with golden sparkling thoughts
but the owner changing its mind to a '61 Latour
a more expensive drink
the bubbles collecting up to the tip
wanting to speak
but the bubbles fade and goes back to the golden liquid
as my thoughts meltdown inside me

My heart.
literally no longer around
its been locked up
in a cell behind my bones
guilty of charge
putting feelings before the mind causing ******

My Ears

overdosed with music
songs that now control my mood
dreamy, sad, hype anything my ears crave
a marijuana to my mind
******* to my heart
and LSD to my ears
shrooms to my vision

summer of 2k19 pt.1

2k19 month of September
Alarmed an international terror
Climate change, change in weather
Drought across the nation
Turned into fire Strom centre
5 months from now
We can still witness the ember
Smoke, ashes from bushfire
Travelled thousands of acres

This inferno had us surrender
We lost a million of species endangered
And pushed many near extinction
Humans were no exception
32 were lost in this render
People lost their land of ancestors
Houses which were a place of
Laughter, revitalization and relaxation
Now are nothing but melted shelters

Firefighters to social writers
All jumped to help out the situation
From taking control over fire
To spread awareness
Seeking for helpers
Nature finally blessed us
It rained and things got under control
Before fire would swallow everything
And melt us...

2k19 thanks alott for your lessons
2020- ahhh let's do this !!!

-aadi