I’m fatally dancing with pride
with her mesmerizing blue eyes and golden hair,
she shows confidence and grace with every stride.
staring back at me with her gleaming eyes

Her words pooling in my broken soul
repairing  my contorted mind
years of abuse healed
because i let her inside

from insecurities and fear
she created her residence
lurking in the depths of my head
she was contaminating me with arrogance

she overcame me
and became my main ally
but she wouldn’t let me be free
yet she still pulled me through

she swept up the past
and revived my life
but that gleam in her eyes
was the gleam from her knife

she tricked me to believe
she would alleviate this sickness
and i could regain myself and achieve
but she was just searching for another broken soul

it’s too late to go back
i already let her in
oh how selfish of myself
to take chances with this sin

she has already consumed me

she is the ocean
she is the sea
and i am drowning

red, blood stains on my hands and your body,
I’ve washed my hands a thousand times,
but i can still see the blood,
purple, all our bruised bodies, galaxies of wrath and fear,
etched into our skin and minds,
bottles shattering, bottles almost as broken as me,
our past now wrapped up in broken glass.
bland dinners, eaten in silence,
too scared to say sorry, too scared to break the silence,
and make it right again.
metal, the metallic smell of blood,
forever stained on my hands.
tears welling in your eyes, while i well with guilt
guilt, frustration, sadness
eating me away into
nothingness