i give her way more love than she wants from me, so, i wonder where she puts all the love garbage

The Episcopal Church is the pretty one
But I do not step inside
Deer sleeps in the grass
I walk down Franklin Street

Vegetarian hot dogs
Pineapple pizza
Jay's teleportation
The free bus gives me greet

Amber in the post office
Tolkien tattoos
SauRon Desantis
Huey Lewis and the News

Duke kicked me out
I am UNC
Basketball at midnight
It's a tarheel life for me

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I can think of twelve hundred good reasons

to drink tonight.



In the back of my mind

they all feel like

shallow little lies.

I am 3.5 steps behind you
You always said you had nine lives
Dear Sylvia, I wish you had stayed
For just one

Dear Sylvia, of all the ways to choose
You create poets who find no art in baking
Though I suppose our ovens
Are viewed a bit differently now

The brownies come out burnt
I write a poem about the time I
Thought about killing myself
but got distracted
reading Sylvia Plath

I remember how they laughed at my name,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at my accent,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at me for crying too much,
but I understand now,

I remember how they laughed at me for being afraid of helicopters and planes, but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at my ideas,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at me for being too kind,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at my poetry,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at how I dressed,
but I understand now,

I remember how they laughed at my smile and ****** expressions, but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at how I walked,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at how I spoke to girls,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at my relationships,
but I understand,
I remember how they laughed at my successes,
but I understand now,
I remember how they laughed at my youth,
but I understand now,

From friends, to teachers, to family, and strangers;
they all laughed at me. But I understand now.

My only regret,
not being able to tell that younger me,
"they'll all laugh at you for being you. But you need to understand, you'll be the one laughing all about them. Let them laugh now, you'll always get the last laugh on them.

I need you to understand now."

i met him once
so long ago
seems like centuries
covered by snow

and beneath
the miles of ice
he's still there
from paradise

a place where rivers
and lakes join hands
and sing in joy
with trees on land

a place where music
and light combine
where multi-colours
radiate shine

a place where water
is made of wisdom
revealing order
unending kingdom

a place where waterfalls
gush forth bliss
speaking the secrets
of eternal kiss

a place where angels
sing like stars
where thoughts are sharp
like scimitars

where sun 'n venus
mars and moon
collaborate in one
infinite tune

aye, he's still there
i feel him still
but up above
on lonely hill

i live as madman
in drunken stupor
oblivious, blind,
to past or future

subsist without aim
a non sequitur
actions as child
with no genitor

one day, i'll wake,
i'll find him afresh,
let's hope, for my sake,
i'm still in this flesh

or else, i know,
it'll be too late
for there's no going back
once you've passed the gate.

as the moon
believes the sun
rises over the horizon.
The dewdrops
pearls of honey,
flopping ears of
the holiday bunny.
The fall leaves turning
golden and crimson.
My head swims in
this reverie
of make-believe.

I believed in you
so, I followed
as a shadow,
with the precision
of an arrow.
I was sticking to you
as marrow,
till you plucked my strings
cutting my wings.

I believed in you
as summer
believes in autumn,
till you pushed me
to the bottom.
I’ve yet to spring back.
This winter was frozen dark
like black ice.
I fell-
not once
but twice.