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271 · Apr 2016
Please just.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
You can't remind me who I am
Through my screams of
LET ME FORGET
Let me forget.
270 · Nov 2015
Beautiful bones.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
She saw the beauty inside of me.
Not in my thoughts or my emotions,
But rather in my bones.
"You have a beautiful skull in there."
There are some things
That only she knows.
269 · Apr 2016
April 13th.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
And here's another goodbye
You and you and you and
Her.
rootsbudsflowers May 2016
follow me into
all of my goodbyes.

they're all meant
for you.
267 · Aug 2016
Bliss.
rootsbudsflowers Aug 2016
Finding someone
Who makes you feel
Everything
And
Nothing
At
All.
267 · Mar 2016
You are taking me up.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
Your beauty
It takes root inside of me
And grows to be
All that I'll ever see.
You are who I can't get out.
263 · Mar 2016
(please) come back.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
Please love me
Forever again
Like that.
263 · Nov 2015
Selfish affection.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
I may not need you
But that will not stop me
From gripping your hand
And leading you on.
262 · Jan 2016
Cut it with the creating.
rootsbudsflowers Jan 2016
And he wouldn't care
If she stopped working so hard
Stopped spending those hours
Primping
Prepping
Practicing
To gain his attention.
To catch that single moment
To pray she stays on his mind.
And he wouldn't care
What she does,
She's all beauty to him
In the little things.
262 · Nov 2015
Walking all over her.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
She's a set of stairs
And they fall for her.
In her banister
They're caught.

They walk her steps
As they capture her
With their eyes
And with their thought.

She slips them up,
She bruises them,
But hate her
They cannot.

Because she brought them here
To where they are,
On the floor
They truly
Sought.
261 · Mar 2016
So sorry.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
The wind brushes her hair from her pale cheek
He glances her way.
It's cold out now but she brings her fingers to her wrists and
Slowly,
Carefully,
Pulls up her sleeves.

He turns away from her
And resumes his duties
Of making sure no
Emotions escape from his world.

She reveals all of the love and loss
On her arms
In the form of
Tattoos
And
Bruises
And
Scars.

Words he wrote.
Things he whispered in her ears late at night
When he thought she was sleeping.
She wasn't sleeping.
Not since that first
"I love you"
Left his lips.

It slipped past his chain link fences
And broke through his bolted doors
That he locked around
His heart
And
His hands.
"Don't let me touch her."
He tells himself
"Don't do it,
That'll be the end."

She glances at him now,
Eyes glassy,
Arms naked,
And makes her way over
To rest by his side.

He offers a polite smile
A visible form of
"Hello, goodbye."
She doesn't take it.
Not this time.

He pulls his cuffed hands closer to him
As she places her fingers
On his temples,
And now moves them downward
To his cheeks,
Now his jaw,
Now his mouth.

And as they lock eyes
Every other thing unlocks
And they fall to the ground
In a crash.

The sound of letting go
Wakes them up from their dream land
And they find themselves
Next to one another
Once again.

By the side of her coffin
As she's slowly lowered under
The ground where she stood
When the wind brushed her hair
From her pale
Dead
Cheek.
so sorry.
259 · Jun 2016
Thank you friend.
rootsbudsflowers Jun 2016
You've made
A beautiful being
Out of me.
:) you open my heart up.
rootsbudsflowers Jun 2016
Optimism is taught
As though it's the
Hight of enjoyment.
To have a happy life,
Think glass half full.

But optimism
Is killing me.
I'm sure of it.

Because
I can hope
And pray
And wish for the day
That you come back to me
And you realize
I'm the one.

And
I can spend
Every day
Waiting for you.
I can waste away my life
At your door.

But
All the optimism
In the world
Can't make you do
What is not in your heart.

The glass could be half full.
Hell,
It could be
Filled up to the brim,
But that won't change the fact
That I'm not with you
And you're with him.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
You're falling now
Just out of my reach.
Never truly mine
Never really lovers
But your absence
Is keeping
Me up at night.

And the song that plays in my head
When I see your face
Is slowly fading out.

And this dark
Secluded
Silence
Is tearing me
Apart.
257 · Nov 2015
Movement on a sidewalk.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
I find myself behind her
As she's gliding down the walkway
With a
Left
Right
Left
Right
Movement of her hips.
256 · Apr 2016
You're like candy.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
And

I

Don't know what to do

I

Don't know what to do

I

Don't know what to do

When I'm

Not

With

You.
255 · Jun 2016
All day.
rootsbudsflowers Jun 2016
We're not as prefect as we
Think we should be.
We mess up more than
We know we should.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
Somebody else
Has already written these words for you.

Somebody else
Has already had these thoughts.

Somebody else
Has already poured their heart out to you.

And somebody else
Has already gotten you to love them back.

Somebody else
Let's say,
Got there before me.

Let's just say
That the only thing standing
Between me and you
Is time.
And opportunity.

I hope you're safe and happy
With your somebody else.
254 · May 2016
Let me go.
rootsbudsflowers May 2016
Stop playing
Hide and go seek
With my heart.
253 · Mar 2016
Please kill it.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
He's crying.
I'm just waiting.
You're avoiding conversation.
And I just
Don't know
Where this
Unnerving
Awkward
Tension's
Coming from.
Put it down.
253 · Feb 2016
Please.
rootsbudsflowers Feb 2016
I miss

My
Family
Of
Friends

And my
Free time.
252 · Mar 2016
No no no.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
come back around
back around
and around
running rushing racing
through my mind
through my mind
through my mind your own business
"This does not concern you"
we tell all the children
as we shut the door
on their little fingers
they hold in the pain
in the pain
in the paying my dues
as I leave this old place
as I walk out on you
won't you come back around
back around
and around
and around back to me.
Please don't leave.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
We'll spend some time apart.
I'll cleanse my broken heart.
I don't like this at all.
250 · Feb 2016
Just a chance (she's gone).
rootsbudsflowers Feb 2016
I don't know what to say anymore.
She's gone.
Just now
Out of my reach.
That feeling of falling
Is all too real.

Now hitting me that
She's leaving.
Now hitting me she'll
Be gone.
Now killing me
Because
She already
Is.

She's been gone some time now.
And what can I do?
Why didn't I think this all through?
I couldn't keep her trapped up,
Held back,
Locked in forever.
I couldn't keep her all
To myself.

But now she's gone.
So what's it really matter.
I lost my chance,
I left my chance,
She took my chance,
She's gone.
248 · Nov 2015
Past due.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
I have spoken every word
And I have used up every letter.
I bought out every sentence,
Just to live life as a debtor.
247 · Dec 2015
Nothing at all.
rootsbudsflowers Dec 2015
Staring into darkness
Hoping to see stars
But there's
Nothing
Nothing
There.
245 · Dec 2015
I need you now.
rootsbudsflowers Dec 2015
Everyone has their addictions.
Mine just so happens to be you.
just realized that these are extremely similar to song lyrics that someone already wrote. I didn't know that. Oops.
245 · Dec 2015
Who am I with(out) you.
rootsbudsflowers Dec 2015
When did I start becoming
More of myself
When I'm with you
Than when I am
Alone.
244 · Dec 2015
Upon your leaving.
rootsbudsflowers Dec 2015
"They'll find a way back to you miss."
The greatest words that anyone has ever said to me upon learning that my dearest friends will be moving away. In spite of my tears and negative attitude, my love calmed my nerves with these eight words. I know it's not a poem but I haven't felt like a poet as of late and that's fine. But I want to see this every time I find my way back here. I need to know that they'll find me again.
243 · Mar 2016
The new old.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
You brighten my day.
You light up my life.
I pray for the day
That you call me your wife.

I've saved up my love.
I've locked up my heart.
For all of the years
That we were apart.

I've waited for you.
And cried many nights.
I knew that my temper
Would cause many fights.

I have my own setbacks.
Please know that is true.
I'm angry,
I'm scared,
I'm no good for you.

But if you love me,
my dear,
And offer a smile,
I'll stay by your side
Every inch,
Every mile.

I'll love you and keep you
So close to my heart.
We'll live our lives together
Until death do us part.
For an old friend. No longer true but still just as pretty.
242 · Apr 2016
You were my purpose.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
Nothing I do
Makes any sense now.
I don't know how I'm going to make it through so many days without you. You only just left and I'm already making up reasons to cry just to feel things again.
240 · Apr 2016
And I. And you.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
And I
Will always love
You for you
And I pray
You love
Me for
Me.
238 · Jul 2016
It's all so dark.
rootsbudsflowers Jul 2016
My dear
You deserve
The Milky Way.
And I am
But a star.
237 · Jan 2016
You look (beautiful).
rootsbudsflowers Jan 2016
Oh baby
You are beautiful
Baby
Baby
So, so beautiful
Don't you worry
Baby
Baby
Don't you worry
How you look.
234 · Jul 2016
Not poetic.
rootsbudsflowers Jul 2016
People seem to want
To be desired.
To be chased after.
To be fought over.
To be wanted.
Needed.

I want to be left the **** alone.

And I know, I know this is going to come off as ****** and unfair. But it's exhausting. I am. Exhausted.

Sure, you see the girl being fought over in the movies or being hit on in the bar and it seems almost magical and endearing, sweet and **** and you just want other people. To want you like that.

But having a friend send you phrases like "I'd very much like to kiss you" late at night when they're too drunk to know any better is not magical.

Having men rev their engines and yell things like "You're red hot!" as they gesture at you to take your top off from their pickup windows is not endearing.

Feeling like you owe someone something because they told you that you're attractive is not sweet.

And then being called vain and cocky and a ***** because you're confident in who you are and how you look, that's not ****. Being confident is ****. Being made to feel guilty about your confidence is not ****.

You do not owe anyone anything simply because you are beautiful. And you are. Beautiful. It's not ****** to choose to not respond to someone who is making you feel uncomfortable due to how they speak or look at you.

I don't want to be desired. Or chased after or fought over. I just want to be left alone to breathe. To take a breath. To simply live my life.

So boo hoo me. I'm attractive and I know it. But that's who I AM. My confidence and beauty is not a question for you to answer. It's my life. Let me live it.
I just need a little fresh air is all.
234 · Jun 2016
Gone.
rootsbudsflowers Jun 2016
And with no heart
How will I ever
Love again.

You were it.
rootsbudsflowers Jun 2016
It'll always be
Her
And
Her
And
Her.

It'll always be
You
On my mind.

And
She
Will
Be
Lost in my mind
In the way I wear my hair.
In the way I glance to the right
As if to share a smile
With her in the passenger side
Of my car.

She's not there
No one is.
Never was.
Never will be.
Her
And
Her
And
Her.
Give me peace, all of you. Let me grieve.
233 · Jul 2016
In love.
rootsbudsflowers Jul 2016
My last time with you
I put my lips
On your shoulder.

I wasn't thinking.
I wanted to bring you close,
You were crying.

So I brought my lips
To your shoulder.
And I opened up
To your skin.

And I was so involved
In everything that
You were.

My mouth.
Your shoulder.
My lips.
Your skin.

You will never
Leave
My mind.

I wouldn't have it any other way.
This has never happened before. I can breathe.
231 · Jul 2016
Never stop forgiving.
rootsbudsflowers Jul 2016
I failed.
I failed you.
And no words
Will take back
The ones I said.

I just want to apologize
And gather you up
And hold you close
And brush my fingers
Through your hair.

But I lost that privilege
When I acted a coward
And put all of my faults
On you.

Ever since
We started falling
I was never fair
To you.

And you loved me so purely
And you cared so deeply
And you did everything right
And good.

But I loved selfishly
And I didn't treat you
In the way you deserve.
I treated you in a way
That I was not proud of
That I am not proud of
I'm ashamed.

Then I poured all the fault on you.
I failed you.
I failed myself.
And I am no good for you.
I am so sorry. I can't take back what I did to you and I hate myself for that. You are so much good and I forced my failings on you. You're light and you are love. I'm no good for you.
230 · Jan 2016
No I won't.
rootsbudsflowers Jan 2016
And there's just no escape
From this hold that you have on me
I'm so sick of feeling this way.

Stuck somewhere between
Being friends and being lovers,
You've clearly chosen your place.

I can't control you
And I will not try to
You should never be contained,
No, not you.

So I will just look on
While you are with another
And I will not steal you
Away.
230 · Jul 2016
All I know.
rootsbudsflowers Jul 2016
my lips on your skin.
my lips on your skin.
my lips on your skin.
229 · Apr 2016
Oh no no. Not once more.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
My head is all a clutter.
I can't make out a thing.
It's as if my mind and my emotions
Are always arguing.
Another old one
229 · Nov 2015
We might.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
I cannot find the words to say,
The ones to set things right.
The English language
Falls away
And leaves me with
"We might."

We might succeed
We might work out
We just might carry on.
But deep inside
The words that occupy me are:
"You're wrong."
228 · Mar 2016
Where are we.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
you took me with you
in bits and pieces
falling all over the place
228 · May 2016
You're gone. Don't go.
rootsbudsflowers May 2016
Sometimes people
Come into your life,
Tear your heart apart,
And leave.

And well,
That just really *****
Now doesn't it.
227 · Mar 2018
Feed
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2018
I'm just not feeling
Anything
Lately
rootsbudsflowers Jul 2016
How terrible it is
That I have come to the point
That to love you I must
Let you go.
226 · Nov 2015
Oops I cried again.
rootsbudsflowers Nov 2015
Please forgive me.
For it appears that my emotions have
Spilled from my eyes again.
224 · Mar 2016
Back to you.
rootsbudsflowers Mar 2016
I no longer know
How to breathe.

You're leaving.
I'm not handling it well.
I've forgotten how to
Exhale.

perhaps if I just
hold my breath
this moment will never
end
And you will never
Leave me.
God I can't take this.
224 · Apr 2016
Now living.
rootsbudsflowers Apr 2016
And the sun's no longer
Shining.

And the sky's a
Milky blue.
Without you.
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