i wanted you to love me on purpose.

(i am tired of being
the part of your song that
cannot be finished)

      -- my hands get cold
      quickly, so take them please,
      tell me you'll love me
      for one more night and
      i'll ******* like i
      believe it,
      i'll do you a favor and
      pretend it never happened
      come morning if you
      pretend that you need me
      for now--

will you not write me
down because you're scared,
or because you don't
know how?

My hands are stained red
What have I done?
I look down at the mangled body
By class mate lays still
It all comes back to me
I lost control
I stumble and fall
I killed her
But...
What's this feeling Inside of me?
Satisfaction?
And...
Glee?
I lick my finger tips
Her blood still warm and soft
I could still taste her sweet screams on my tongue
I shuddered
Maybe just one more...

I want you bad.

I want you bad
Naughty not nice.
Kissing your nose while you giggle inside.
I want you bad
**** Naked by my side
Waking up with your hands in places where it's very hard to think twice.
I want you bad deep intimate thoughts away
I wonder if you would ride,
Even though your a small piece It's still a handful when you wag that tale.
Lollipop .... The cheesecake kind..I wana see how much wip cream will come out this time.
I want you bad!
Grab a hold of mine,
Yank it pull it look at me when you hold me tight
...this ***** cause I'm so blatant..most won't ever talk about this but I'm the freak of nature.
Yeah point the fingers, I'll be the one on my knees praying to God that he will take all these

Your fingers linger on the bruises
You put there just last night
Covering
Last week's addition with thoughtful convenience
Streaks of red and blue around my throat
A word too fast
A breath too short
I made you angry
You did not realize
This one time would be the last
A second too long
A lifetime lost
My body in a bag
A macabre sculpture you created like an artisan
Molding my face into a canvas of fear and pain
Into the blank face of death
You created art and like most artists
I(t) will haunt your sleepless night
With every memory of me

Insecure people make me angry.
I get upset when someone talks themselves down  over and over again.
Find something beautiful about yourself and stick to it.
If you cannot find anything that you love about yourself, you are going to be sad forever.
If you cannot see the beautiful in yourself how can you find the beautiful in other people?
I wish everyone would realize they shine a different light, and all lights are beautiful.
They light up a different way, they light up different people.
It's a magic light that some people can see, and some others can't.
I wish it were enough for everyone.
You do not need to shine for the world.
You need to shine for the people who can see it.
For the people who can love it.
Who can love you.
I wish it was enough for me.