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Ranger Dec 2014
Summer, Baby girl I said we need to talk. That is the last thing I ever got to say to you. I wish I could say what I need to to your face. That you where not so scared to face me. That you could hear my voice one last time. I feel I deserve that. To be able to say good bye one last time, to be able to know you one last time and hear your voice, But you refuse. I am to let go but never be able to say good bye the right way... But you wont so this will have to do. There are so many things Summer. So many things unsaid. So many things never done. So many dreams left unfulfilled. I wanted so bad to hold you and feel you in my arms, to dance with you and to be able to look in your eyes with mine, No glass wall no screen. To be able to walk hand in hand with you and be able to tell you I love you with out having to be so far away. I wanted to make you smile and bring you flowers and be able to see you blush and giggle and be able to rest my hands on your cheeks and feel the warmth. I wanted to show you what was inside of me. I wanted to prove to you how much I love you. So many things left not done. Another thing I really wish.. I wish I could have shown your family who and what I really am. The man you know I am and not the lies they where told. I am not a monster I know this. I thought I was. Hideous unwanted ugly and abandoned. You showed me that I was not and even tho you hide from me I know its not because of that. I am not the monster. I am just a person with a heart who fell in love with some one else. I did not choose it nor did you. It just happened, Our hearts touched and we made a connection. I know you where young and you still are in many ways. The things I ask you are not ready for. Its not fair to either of us. I wish they could see that. I know I say I dont care what people think of me and that I could not care less  if they don't like me but honestly that was a lie. I do care. I care because they have been taking care of some one I care about very much I wanted to prove to them I was not what they where told. I wanted to thank them for giving you life and making you so wonderful. I wanted them to know how I have always been there for you when you cried and how I always told you how beautiful and amazing you are. I wanted them to see you happy and know that every day I try my very best to make you that way. I am not the monster in this story. They pulled you away from me to try and make sure you where safe but honestly.. I dont blame them, I just wish that if they had an issue they would take the time to know me because they don't realize them and I are on the same side. I wonder what they would say if they new all the little things I know. All the times I saved you and you saved me. I wonder if they ever thought about why you have that tattoo on your wrist and if they figured it out that it is about those darkest days how we would sit there and your demons would try and bring you down and we would fight them together. You and me, we survived together. I know your not going to forget me, or those days. The things we got through. I know when you look at that tattoo you will think of the wolf who was there in the shadows helping you find your way through the dark. I am proud of you baby, I really am. I am proud of us and the things we got through. I do not care what any one else says.. it was worth it even if this story has to come to a close we made it in the end. You are stronger then you know and you are right you don't need me any more. Please be proud of your past. Please learn from it and realize you are stronger now. And when you are old and grey and you look down at those scars that have faded and the mark on your skin remember at on point in your life that you where loved, even if I am dead and gone you have been loved unconditionally fully and wholly. I could never hate you, I could never not want you. I will never slam that door shut. Even if you are sitting there and trying to rip pages out of the book of your life I will never do that to mine. I am happy when I think back to the five years we have spent as best friends and the 2  years we spent as more. I will read back and think of you. The beautiful amazing girl with the blue eyes who showed me how to let my anger go. I will never forget the little fox who would not run even when every one else wanted to or those who wanted me in a cage. You came to me and curled up in my fur, This black blood stained wolf and showed   him he was a good and pure silver underneath. How could I ever let go of all those happy memories.  But this is now and you you want to let go, you want to stop hurting for me. Today I write this is at midnight of our 2 year, The same day it all started.. some thing poetic in that and tragic thought. Knowing I am there is making this hard for you. I am not trying to breath down your neck I am not trying to hurt you. I am simply wanting to destroy the last scrap of what ever it is that is left. You know just as well as I that even if I stop fallowing and I will still be there. The wolf, in the shadows and maybe more importantly the man who had a place in your heart. You will always have a place in mine Summer and if you still want to have a place in my life I will always be here. I am sorry I make you hurt but there are so many things I wish I could say, like how the idea of all the things I gave you going in the trash makes me break down crying or how my life is changing for the better even with you gone or how it frightens me the idea of the rest of my life with out the one who called me her soul mate. So many things still.. But know this.. I do love you baby, forever and for always some where in the dreams there is a little fox and a wolf with a scar on one eye playing and loving each other. I am not trying to fight, I have done as you ask and done my best not to msg you. I am not trying to fight for you I am simply enduring being with out you, this feeling of being only half. I put the things up online because they make me happy when I remember you. I am not fighting, I am simply enduring. It hurts not to speak, to be silent but I do it for you. Because I love you. Because it is what you ask. I will always love you and care about you. So be proud and be strong and if you ever need me I will be there.

Your wolf forever
Daniel
Ranger Dec 2014
I dreamed I had died
You standing over my stone
My lost crying bride
And my empty thrown

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What have I left behind
In this wake that was life
Do I still linger in your mind
Do you regret being my wife

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I dreamed you where so broken
I know that you hurt and lost
Good bye where never spoken
In the end what did our love cost

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What have I left behind in the end
Do you remember all that hurt you hid so well
I was always there to help you as a friend
I hope I showed you how to save your self from your hell

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What did I leave behind in my wake
Do you remember the good times
When we had no pain to ache
You where my partner in crimes

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Did I leave a reason to be missed
All the love we shared
With those nights with a lasting kiss
With our hearts as one handling with care

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What did you learn from me
How to be brave and fight
In the end what would I see
How you never gave up chasing that light

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Do you know how much I dreamed
How I loved to watch you smile and blush
It was so perfect it really did seam
When you think of me do the butterflys rush

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In the end what was I to my love
Was I easy to forget
Take every thing I was and give it a shove
Or did you sit there in silence and fret

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I wish I knew what I could say
I hope you hold a happy memory
On those night with the cold waiting for the day
In the end I was never your enemy

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Forget the wrong that was done
All the of the past
Smile bright when your walk in the sun
I hope love I showed you will last

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Know that you are always in my heart
You where a my other half
My most important part
You where that one thing that let me laugh

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We were Romeo and Juliet when all said and done
I wanted to take you as mine
Away we would be happy and far away we would run
But in the end you would not cross that line

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Even know I wish i could hold you
Our bodys so tight
And whisper in your ear all the things that are true
Every thing will be alright

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I wish I could have repaired the damage that was laid
Prove I was not what they thought and where told
I wish that I could show all the love that I paid
And I am more then a number more then just old

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I never did try and make you hurt
And all the times I worked to make you strong
Never pushing you down in to the dirt
Was that really so wrong

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Did I leave you with some thing good
What did you keep of it all
The courage to do all that you could
And to realize you really are not so small

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In the end what was left behind
Writing this in memory of my love and best friend.
She sacrificed me to stop almost a year of abuse and anger
because they did not approve of me.

I wish I could have shown them I was not the monster they thought I was and that I hope when she thinks of me she can smile one day and think "I was loved and I am worth it"
Ranger Dec 2014
Broken bits scatter the floor
Was it a puzzle or a toy
Damaged and shattered
It all crumbled away
In hallows and gaps in the world it collects
In the shadows where no one can see
Long time passes days or years
But the broken bits are me
Ranger Dec 2014
Wonderfully wrong
Have I lived my life
Wonderfully wrong
On the edge of a knife
Wonderfully wrong
It was so broken
Wonderfully Wrong
Until I had that token
Wonderfully wrong
It made sense
Wonderfully wrong
On the other side of the fence
Wonderfully wrong
It made me smiles
Wonderfully wrong
The thousands of miles
Wonderfully wrong

Was never so Right
Ranger Dec 2014
In darkest days
In sorrow filled night
Do not crumble in hardest blight
Burn bright by fires light
For the path of pure is still in sight
Yeah, I wrote my own lantern core oath. Have not chosen a color for it tho
Ranger Dec 2014
Whispering soft sweet nothings in the wind
I walk silently in the pale moon light
The frost of cold earth beneath my feet
Walking this trail softly looking up in to the stars
My heart beats slow and steady
A cool wind rolling up my back
Where is the world that once was
When did it all go so dark
Sitting on a rock
I look to the horizon for breaking light
Waiting for the day the light returns to my life
Or the day the dark that binds me doesn't feel so cold
Ranger Dec 2014
You and                me
Two years ago       to this day
I got some thing  amazing like never
Held it in my hands for the first time
It burned so bright and felt so pure
I was so scared but so at piece
Please don't break it......
You gave it to me......
I gave you mine...
Our heart..
Our soul.
Love
Tomorrow, The day every thing went wonderful wrong. My life hit a curve and was made tragically amazing. She has Gone but the feeling still remain. I am here and you're still in my heart and dreams
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