I havnt written here in a while
I know what I write here aren’t actually poems I just like to share my thoughts
I had always been the one who ended a relationship
Not saying much there were only two.
So when the time came for this one to end I was very shocked
I know nobody is reading this because everyone I would use this with left it behind
So I will use it to type how I feel
I never thought it would end like this
You were the perfect girl
The person who was always there for me when I needed you
You always cared and comforted me
I couldn’t have asked for a better girlfriend
I wish I could go back and do things differently
I would try a little harder
Tell you much I care one extra time
Do everything I could to be there for you like you were for me
I know you say it’s just who I am and I can’t help it but I would do anything for you
I just wanted it to work out as much as you did
I just want you to be happy
But I also want to be the reason you are happy
So when you said being with me makes you unhappy it made me feel like the worst kind of person
The kind of person who isn’t there for someone who needs them
I’m sorry for not caring enough
I’m sorry for not loving you enough
I know you don’t want me to be but I can’t help it
All I want is you and I didn’t see it coming
So when u called me that night after u left me and drove away the last thing I expected is what came out of your mouth.
For I am truly heartbroken

She’s more fun when she is drunk
At least…until she’s not
Because she’s puking in the toilet
And regretting her last shot

She’s more confident when she’s drunk
Gorgeous and ready to score
Until she looks in a mirror
And feels even uglier than before

She likes herself more when she is drunk
Until that feeling goes away
When she is so far beyond gone
That her self-hatred comes out to play

She’s happier when she’s drunk
All her issues leave her brain
But they all come crashing back at once
And cause her so much pain

She likes the world more when drunk
It’s filled with so much good
Until one little thing sets her off
And she hates it all more than she should

She likes life more when she’s drunk
Her mind for once feels still
Terrified of losing that feeling
She soon wants to end things with a pill

But she can stop any time she wants
Or so she’d have you believe
Because alcohol makes her seem so happy
That is, until all her friends leave

i’ve written poetry about you
i’ve dreamed dreams of you

you were once a mystery
and a hopeful wish

but now you are here.

You were so fleeting,
I couldn't get enough of you ever.
I ate you up,
swallowed you whole,
and when you had enough,
all that taking and taking
never able to give you enough
you were done.

"And We're Burning All the Bridges."

she listens to the lyrics and thinks of what her mother had told her:

"You are their bridge"

*they must be burning me now

i can't explain you
i can usually make sense
of these feelings i feel
but for some reason
this is failing me

maybe it's always going to be a mystery
how some people can just crawl inside your heart
and make you feel like you're finally home

i hope you know
i've never felt this way
about another soul before

and naturally i should be scared
but this is one of the most peaceful things
i've ever felt.