I say I'm okay
but I'm not
I'll have my good days
and I'll have my worst
but until the day
I go to bed without
a feeling of dread
or tears on the bed
pounding in my head
the inability to catch my breath
I'm not okay

I won't truly be okay
Until the day
I can say hello
without having to rehearse it
or wonder if I said it
too quiet
or too loud
if it even came out
and worrying if
the conversation will go past that

If the most I say
about how I'm feeling
is okay
and you had to ask in the first place
I'm probably not

If I'm more worried
if you're okay
than I'm probably not
because until I unlearn
how to pick everybody but myself up
I'm not

I say I'm okay
so you don't have to worry about me
but I'll still cling to all the care
and love you give to me
because I'm still unsure
if its all I get
so until the day
I don't feel the need
for reassurance that you care for me
I'm not okay

Until the day
I can no longer relate to this
I'm not okay
but I'm working on it

My heart was always looking for,
Someone to mend the crack.
To make me feel that others care,
And get me back on track.

I dealt with so much pain,
So many times before.
Life before I met you,
Was always such a bore.

I love you so much more,
Than words could ever say,
And incase you didn't know,
I think about you everyday.

Words could never fully describe
the way you make me feel.
I just cannot explain it
because it just feels so real.
You always make me smile
and that smile goes on for a million miles.
There is only one way to say how it is true
and that is to say I love you.
I don't care how long it takes,
For us to finish this race.
I truly love you,
And I hope that you love me too.

You may sometimes feel as though that your life has no meaning. That no matter how many times you try to help someone, you always look like the bad guy. All I can say, is keep your eyes open because no matter what, you are in control of your own destiny, whether you believe it or not. Nothing is permanent. Nothing is set in stone. Even permanent marker eventually washes away. So we should always keep our eyes open because if we walk through life blind, we will miss all the beauty along the journey.

Never let anyone take away what you worked so hard to achieve because in the end, it is all yours.