I have had to take a break,
From writing about my life.
So much has been going on,
I finally put down the knife.

I had my little girl,
Who changed my life forver.
She gave me hope that I could heal my wounds,
And to give up never.

Me and her father drifted apart,
Due to domestic abuse.
I couldn't let myself fall backwards,
To once again tying a noose.

I walked away to protect my daughter,
In any way possibly needed.
And in walking away I found someone better,
Someone to show me I wasn't defeated.

He has a son from his previous relationship,
And I couldn't have been more glad.
To watch him taking care of my daughter as his own,
And meeting his little lad.

My new partner stood by me in court,
As I fought for my little girl.
Watching as if she were his own,
In a crazy whirl.

Fast forward to this moment,
Years after all is said and done.
We are now a happy family of three,
With our now two year old son.

Everything happens for a reason,
Some good and some scary.
But we can come back from it,
And we do not need to wary.

This is my life so far,
My reason for stepping back.
I needed to clear my head,
And get my life back on track.

But now I stand her a warrior,
A fighter who never quit.
I stand here a proud mother,
And my fire for writing, is once again lit.

I know that it has been awhile,
Since I sat down to write.
Because now my life is soaring,
High just like a kite.

Now I am a fiance,
And a mother to a daughter.
Everything is looking up,
Even though I thought I could go no farther.

We have our own apartment,
Paying our own bills.
No more living with parent,
Just us at our own free will.  

Our little girl is now 6 months,
And time is going fast.
No more remembering the bad times,
No more living in the past.

Within me is a being,
That I cannot yet see.
A child growing day by day,
A gift to my fiance and me.

We may be scared,
And we may be stressed.
But we need to work hard,
To give our child the best.

The child may have surprised us,
But I wouldn't change a thing.
Bringing life into the world is magic,
And in a great way, mesmerizing.

I was once a girl,
Hidden by my self hate.
After the pain, I hid away,
Until I found my mate.

He lifted me out of my suffering,
And opened up my eyes.
That I am truly amazing,
And I have no need to hide.

He gave me back my confidence,
And makes me so happy I could sing,
He is my light and my muse,
And his name is Brandon King.

Love you baby <3 :-)

There are two types of beauty in the world. The beauty you see in yourself and the beauty you see in others.

i want to give you hickies
all over your neck, and stomach, and thighs
i want to kiss you so much
that we forget that we need to breathe
i want to deeply love, write you poems and songs
and cry with you when it is too late to
hold it in any longer
your lips are perfectly shaped,
your eyes hold some type of magic
please let me be the one to love you
endlessly and without limits
we can do things that you
have never experienced before
i want to give you hickies
you can give them to me too,
if you want.

o.o.

4/6/16 11:01 pm