They didn't care when I fell apart
they didn't care to tell me that even when he is gone I am still art
they didn't care to pull me from edge
I make these sad jokes
but they flew over your head
my IG feed wants me dead
they didn't care for the futures because they didn't wanna know
and right now it shows
they didn't care to tell me where'd they go
no its just me and my woes
I find my self wanting better than this
but years and years of
it doesn't get  better than this
broke me
I forget what hope means
I feel distant but im right here
im lacking the protective layer of fear
cause i suppose I've left earths atmosphere
I was a balloon and they didn't care to hold on

I remember when you would hit my chest
you would cry and pray
or whatever you felt that day
you'd look at me with those disgusted eyes and say
why dont you love me
well loving you made me this way

As every insecurity you projected unto me
led to my undoing
we fall apart
when I look at us
I  see the flaws you made aparent
I sigh woe is me blah blah blah
I hid behind the humor
but you made me this way

i remembered when you wanted my defensive
but when I did you became offensive
I dont understand
or  just wasn't comprehensive
of what mistakes I made
you were attentive that id never make this error again
I was set up for submission
or was that was your true intent
nevertheless you made me this way

I sleep next to you but the only presence is air
when I reach for your hand
you're not willing to share
id be there when you didn't want me to
but if the roles changed I aint sure what you'd do
this way of life isn't just about you
you made me this way to stop loving you