Im ****** up on you. You're ****** up on antidepressants Couldn't see that from the start because you blinded me with your beauty You must've stayed because I made you feel alive, gave you a crimson color in your skin Then you found another that gave you feeling in your chest and made blood flow through your cut wrists You use to have ****** lips because you chewed through them I guess anxiety will do that to you You would kiss me when no one was watching and hold my hand when we snuck out your parents house at night Then behind closed doors your insecurities seemed to disappear The way you bit into the flesh of my neck and forced me to the bed Caressed my thighs and gave me a french kiss in a foreign place Made my back arch as I moaned your name In the morning I'd leave and come back the next day Then you started to distance yourself Ignored calls ****** fists of confusion Teary eyes and smeared makeup You stopped answering the door after your mom constantly told me you weren't feeling well I was abandoned by you The one person that gave me butterflies and hickies Knew how to make me laugh but moan after hours Even though you saw yourself as damaged goods, I saw you as a gift from god You gave me chills down my spine Clumsily licked my teeth with your tongue during a kiss Laid with your body inside of mine as I held you tight and put my face in your neck Now I yearn for your scent and to see your smile But you're nowhere to be found Gone in the blink of an eye I dread the thought of how fast you slipped away from me I miss your tight hugs and how you grabbed the back of my neck to pull me in for a kiss I miss the light you brought to my eyes How you didn't have to hide behind a mask with me and made yourself so vulnerable Come back to me.