today i ate way too much
and kissed a boy i loved
and chased some boys i don’t.
isn’t that just me?
you are the proton and
i am the neutron
i am swirling down quickly
to a new and unknown place
but i’ve been here before
somehow in another time
or space.
i know i’ll just convince myself
i’ve been lying this whole time
i pick petals off a daisy
“do i love him?”
“do i not?”
it feels like i’m lying
but i’m compelled to say these things
i’m not sure what i want
or how this will end
either way you were a
god send
says the atheist in bed
i’m terrified
i’m petrified
i’m laying on my back
writing a poem that makes no sense
i think we’re all just
going mad