I miss summer I miss all its apparent infinities Possibilities like pebbles on a shingle beach I drowned in them The infinite skies The infinite ocean And clouds strung up like garments on a washing line Time was like bubble-gum And my freedom could be stretched by just breathing into it
I miss summer I miss wading in blue rather than grey Or brown Or orange Because the trees played Ring-a-ring-o-roses And the wind sang the refrain The sunsets used to suspend themselves just for me Like a child was commissioned to paint all over That great big blue tarpaulin
I miss summer I miss procrastinating minus guilt I miss flicking through my life Like the weeks were library shelves I miss sitting by the fountain in town Until the word ‘Deadline’ had no meaning I miss catching busses and the sun dust on the windows I miss the fact that we had forever To lick windows and ice-creams I miss flip-flop days And catching-rain-in-T-shirts days And pretending to be limitless
I’ve lived about a decade and a half So The Time Of My Life is just about due But I walk home from school Via the swing sets and roundabouts in the park And watch the kids who’ve not yet learned Why trees scrape back their leaves And strangle themselves with gossamer nooses In autumn They fling like drunken spinning tops And down their hysteria like shots And I can’t help feeling old I’m not a young and beautiful love affair I’m a cast-aside leaf Who’s only too aware that she’s thin as paper Shrivelled as morning bed sheets Grey as the cigarettes God’s smoking I’ve started to wonder Why these aren’t known as my Autumn Years Because breathe me out And watch me fall