another night without you the pain inside burns it burns almost more then the alcohol i consume drinking to try and forget everything everything i cant be because the feeling of reject the feeling of regret the feeling of the love i wont ever get i had plans plans for the future future with you, a house, kids
now when you run through my mind i feel sick i get nervous my stomach flips i cant sit straight because i get an awkward feeling because i know you don't want me back my eyes glaze tears run down my face but i have no emotion i feel no pain
sometime i think if i tried a little harder you would have left but i know if all you wanted was more effort that's what you would have said you would have told me that you need a little more love a longer message before bed i gave you all that i gave you everything i had
i didn't have a job neither did you but when i got money it would go straight to us dates, dinner, snacks for the nights that we spent alone just me and you
now i have a job i have money but no you i go to the movies i go for dinner i buy snacks by myself, without you i see movies i know you'd like even if i know i wouldn't
I'm pathetic for being so ******* upset i realize everyday that its life that one day ill have love again but late at night as soon as i lay down to rest as soon as my body hits my bed its like my blanket is full of memories we once had no matter who i love in the future or who loves me you'll always be my first you'll always have the biggest part of me