A harsh light bulb-lit reflection Deep, tired, dark circles That outermost omnipresent aloofness
Dark 00's and midriff The cold, 6:00 am, hollow and dim living room Seriously demeaning and only aware introspectively Noble-felt, harshly observed silence
First, the summit most deeply craved and sensually submissive to Clarity and optimism Motivation and kindness But impending soon after A permanent loneliness, soullessness, sadness and a vast emptiness The every day conscience
Hours spent absorbing the stillest silence possible Not being able to think full thoughts or talk to oneself All that's distinguished is feeling paralyzed in the mind Harsh bathroom lights Loud, rough water filling the bathtub Staring as the repetitive breathing moves the water line back then forth Up then down Slow moving and eerily melancholy
Continues
2 am... 3 am... 4 am...
Physically exhausted and still Lethargic bones Mentally continuous, even rapid, and imaginative
Consisting of only slightly heavy, controlledΒ Β breaths and an idled pause Everything is paused except the mind
The body goes without Naturally retracting from the mind Counting the minutes until the alarm goes off Arises to feel disoriented Resolves with more A light-dark shimmer and brown boots Perfectly placed lips A sharp nose and a sunken aura That craving, comfortable normal attained
It all resurfaces The smell of that time The mentally formed associations Cold like the winter, early mornings and the fluorescent light Cigarettes like the emptiness, somber, bitterness and silence
Oppressive but so liberating Depressive but so enthralling It smells malignity pleasure-filled