if only you knew, what kind of shape you left me in
a body wasted away to nothing.
nothing but an empty shell,
filled with heartache and sorrow.
ultimately a self-destructive mess
left to fend hopelessly on her own.
you had always said you needed me
time after time, night after night.
you made me blind
not realizing the extent of how I had come to depend on you
I believed you
you had once said you needed me, to survive.
but now that you are gone
I am the one who needs you
I am the one close to pulling the trigger.
you are the one with light in your eyes
and another in your bed.