I used to say
I just want to fall in love

And then

I fell from the clouds and into your world
My heart still hurts from the crash
My soul still remembers the first time
The first time
I saw your face
And I thought

****.

Here it goes.

I feel the veins of my heart leaking blood
Inside my body I am drowning in love
And I can remember I used to say
I just want to fall in love
And though the fall was thrilling
And though you helped me up
You turned around almost instantly
Like switching a light on and off
You light me up and forgot I was shining
You left the room and I still I shine
For you
You left the house and still I shine
For you
You left the world I fell in and still I shine
For you
But you are not watching me.
You found the sun in the garden and I am just a light you forgot in a room.

(I HOPE IT ******* RAINS AND YOU HAVE NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO COME BACK TO ME AND I SWEAR I WILL SET YOU ON FIRE.)

I won't.

I used to say

I just want to fall in love.

I had forgotten how much
Watching someone you love
Love someone else
Burns
My skin is on fire and I wish I could remove this physical cloak of pain to jump in a lake and forget the touch of your finger
On my flesh
I want to expand my soul until I the hurt disappears
My body is too small to feel so much
I am suffocating in my own body
I love you so much
And I hurt so much
I want to feel it all
I want my cries to be a storm
I want to wake up the whole neighbourhood and tell them with rain and lighting and thunder how you were my home
I want to find your house and destroy the roof so you understand what it is like
to be homeless
I want you to look me up straight into the eyes and say
I'm sorry I forgot to turn you off